Legolas Thranduilion

Every time I think humanity can’t let me down any further, they manage to surprise me in the worst way possible. That orange Cheeto man won again. I’m never leaving my house again.

Ugh, my little sister, who’s 22, three years younger than me, and severely autistic is being such a spoiled brat right now. 
          
          For context, she and I are both autistic but she’s got developmental delays to an extent, as she does know better. 
          
          She took a spoon from the dishwasher which might not have been clean, so I try to help her by giving her a spoon I rinsed off for her, and she reacts with violence. She threw a hard bouncy ball at me, then hit the cat. 
          
          I tried to remain calm and be understanding, but I had to get my stepdad for help. Somehow he both helped and made things a little worse. She had this glint in her eyes as she put her dishes in the sink, and after the way she had treated me and Eddie, I snapped and sprayed her with the kitchen faucet sprayer, albeit gently and I tried not to make a mess. I’m not proud of it and I feel bad about it, but considering she’s been behaving this way for years and is spoiled rotten by my family, I consider this my one to her eleven-thousand. 
          
          I’m not going to lose control like that again if I can help it. My sister tried to hit me after being sprayed. Frankly, I don’t blame her, but the way I’m disrespected in my own house, not just by my sister but my own parents, one of these days I’m going to rip out my own hair and give in to my depression and anxiety. No wonder I’m mentally ill. The only ones who actually love me are the cats.

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/florida-mother-lawsuit-character-ai-sons-death/
          
          Now, normally I don’t condone the use of AI, but I also normally don’t mind if you’re messing around on character.ai or similar sites. In this case, I do mind and I heavily discourage and condemn messing around with AI chatbots, but I don’t think AI is solely the problem here, and I’ll explain why in the next paragraphs.
          
          This kid had mental health issues so severe, he was unable to determine that there was no person behind the bot, he was unable to see it wasn’t real even with the warning. As such, he shouldn’t have been using AI chatbots. If you’re at a stage in your life where you can’t differentiate an AI bot from a real person, then I strongly discourage you from using character.ai or similar sites.
          
          He also had access to a gun. Let that sink in.
          
          The language the AI bot used wasn’t encouraging him to end his life, at least that’s not what it looks and sounds like to me, but the kid was struggling so much that’s how he interpreted the words of the bot.

Disclaimer: This is an AI generated answer to a web search on my browser, Brave. I don’t condone the usage of AI unless it’s just for fun or as a supplement (ex. using Character AI to mess around with the bots of fictional characters on there or to assist human efforts without replacing them vs. using it to steal art or as a replacement for human efforts). I just couldn’t stop my browser from generating this answer and some of it was actually on point, so I figured I’d share an edited version of it. If anything is stolen, please let me know.
          
          If you live in a place where showing solidarity with Palestine is dangerous, it’s essential to prioritize your safety while still expressing your support. Here are some ways to do so:
          
          1. Educate Yourself and Others: Continue to learn about the Palestinian struggle and its root causes. Share your knowledge with others, and encourage them to do the same. This can help build a more informed and empathetic community, even if you can’t publicly demonstrate solidarity.
          2. Support Palestinian Artists and Creators: Promote and purchase art, music, and literature created by Palestinians. This helps to amplify their voices and stories, while also supporting their livelihoods.
          3. Participate in Quiet Acts of Solidarity: Engage in small, private acts of solidarity, such as wearing a Palestine-themed pin or scarf, or displaying Palestinian flags or posters in your home, or if you live in a toxic home environment where showing solidarity with Palestine in your home isn’t safe due to your housemates or family members, you can put a watermelon (the symbol of Palestine) on your social media profiles. The Palestinians themselves did this as a form of subtle resistance when their flag was banned by the corrupt Israeli government in 1967 until they tried to ban the colors red, green, and black too. These subtle gestures can still convey your support without putting you at risk.

I finally made a TikTok.
          
          https://www.tiktok.com/@thehighwoman158

I know how you feel, thats why you should take all the Time you need.
          No one is rushing you, and to write should make Fun, it shouldnt be a must.
          Important are you and your healthy now, so focus at that, and get well soon again.

I’m feeling guilty rn. It’s one of those days where it takes everything I have to do something as simple as making a sandwich. I’m 25 now, this shouldn’t be as hard as it is, even with depression, GAD, and ASD, but I literally couldn’t shower when I told myself I would this morning and it took all afternoon just to motivate middle to get in before I finally got in at like 3:30 something. I had to ask my parents for help cooking for myself again and they were tired too, then reminded me I’m 25 now and I need to do these things for myself, so I tried to take it back and tell them it was okay and that I could just drink a smoothie, but mom still insisted. She told me she didn’t mean to make me feel bad, but I likely would have felt bad anyways because I already feel like crap about this and it’s not a matter of the person who brings it up but the subject itself. I was finally making progress too. The healing process is taking its sweet time and I’m getting impatient.

Winnie just hissed at Willow and caught a mouse and Eddie bit Willow on the throat moments earlier. What is this, bully Willow day? Bad kitties, they know better than to bully Willow, but good on Winnie for catching a mouse.

(Twisted Secrets/Fathoms Below AU): When you thought that you knew the one you loved only to realize that he’s still in there but he’s on the brink of overblot and there’s only one way to save him in time…
          
          TW: poisoning, mürdër-süïcïde attempt
          
          Inspired by Bucky’s song and Lunaiira by Morgan Clae
          
          https://m.youtube.com/shorts/czzPxU0EQ9U
          
          https://m.youtube.com/shorts/P-Q-YENdKUA
          
          Marian, after overhearing Vil plotting to curse Neige: *hypervenilates* (Internally: Reliving the scars that do not show…cause the sound of his voice became my home…) 

It’s been awhile since I last posted something, but here we go.
          
          I found this petition and I think it’s important.
          
          https://chng.it/gMWhL6n6k5
          
          I also found a list of ethical alternatives to brands that are complicit in the genocide in Palestine.
          
          https://www.ethicalconsumer.org/ethicalcampaigns/boycotts/alternative-ethical-brands-support-palestine
          
          Also, as we support the people of Palestine, don’t forget the millions of others around the world who are suffering as the victims of genocide as well.
          
          https://www.hrw.org/news/2022/06/16/ethiopias-invisible-ethnic-cleansing
          
          https://hmh.org/library/research/genocide-in-darfur-guide/
          
          https://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-china-22278037
          
          https://encyclopedia.ushmm.org/content/en/article/the-armenian-genocide-1915-16-overview
          
          https://edtimes.in/the-hidden-holocaust-in-congo-that-killed-millions/
          
          https://www.genocidewatch.com/single-post/country-report-west-papua
          
          https://exhibitions.ushmm.org/burmas-path-to-genocide
          
          I will add more to this later.