Sage <3

Does anyone know of any good stalker romance recs?
          
          But like sweet stalkering 
          Like the guy actually cares abt her even if he’s a dick to everyone else
          Like yk? Like he’s stalks her and is obviously like dangerous and stuff but like not to her, (I’ve seen a few too many stalker romances where he SAs her etc) 
          Kinda like in Lights Out except he can be a bit more psychotic but like not to her
          
          And also if she is like traumatised not by him ofc but like from her past and then her stalker kills them all etc when he finds out 
          

Guyssss
          
          Idk if it’s a TW but: mention of illness/POTS etc 
          
          
          My body is so messed up wtf
          
          So basically I was reading this fic where the oc has ME/CFS so then I ofc had to google what that was and i was like fck I have all those symptoms so then I went down a rabbit hole lol
          
          So basically thanks to a blood pressure machine and chat GPT 
          
          I either have POTS or OH, but funnily enough the thing to you need go diagnose each is the complete opposite, for OH ur blood pressure increases but for POTS ur blood pressure stays the same 
          
          But for some stupid reason the 1st test my blood pressure increased drastically so chat got said I had OH
          
          But the 2nd test I did said I had POTS 
          
          And Idfk what to do cuz also almost all of my symptoms no one fkn knows abt cuz I never tell ppl when im in pain or if smth is wrong, cuz I js like push it to the side and pretend im fine and js like convince myself its not a big deal even tho I practically pass out every time I stand up, so idk how ill even bring it up to my parents
          
          And also apparently the meds that I take are most likely either making it so much worse or causing most of the symptoms so idfk what to do
          
          And I probs won’t do anything UNTILL after exams even tho chat gpt says I should go to a doctor and tell them what’s happening urgently and it’s like dangerous or wtv but I’ve had these symptoms for like atleast 5 years and I’m fine (I think) and my exams are kinda important cuz like yk they are my last ones ever
          
          Anyway yeah today has also js been a shity day ive js felt like shit all day lol
          
          
          Anyway sorry for the rant but idk what to do and I don’t rlly wanna bother ppl with this and idk I get ppl are busy but like idk
          
          Anywayyyy

I hate myself sm wtf
          
          What’s wrong with me 
          
          I’m freaking tf out and I can’t do anything
          
          I’m scared 
          
          I’ve got my final alevels in 12 days and I’m trying to study I rlly am but i just can’t maybe I’m not forcing myself to enough but idk I can’t do it 
          Why is it so hard 
          I can’t do this 
          
          I can’t even complain to anyone bc they’ll just say I’m sure ur doing ur best or smth like abt studying or wtv but how do I explain that to them it might seem simple im worried abt grades so i should study more but idk how 
          
          How do I explain that im barely studying without seeming like a bitch or Wtv 
          
          How do I explain that I’m trying but I feel like I’m not trying hard enough
          
          Anyway this is just surface level thoughts there’s other things I wanna say but I can’t put them to words they are like in the front of my mind but I can’t word it so this is the best I can do even tho it makes no sense

Doing past papers for my A levels and realising just how skrewed I am
          
          I legit don’t think I’m gonna get a grade on any of my papers 
          
          Bye bye uni
          Bye bye future
          :(

Can someone pls tell me to go eat something 
          
          Im kinda hungry but im too lazy to get out of bed lol

Guys HELP
          
          If I were to make a fourth wing fanfic 
          Should it be a 
          
          Garrick fic, the oc being xadens younger sister
          
          A Xaden fic, oc being either someone random or idk tell me who u think she should be related too?
          
          A Liam fic?
          
          Or someone else

I don’t think I can keep doing this 
          wtf is wrong with me

Someone pls give me smth to read before i loose my damn mind

I think I rlly need someone rn

My discord is like down? Idk it’s not letting me send messages so I just want to let you know I’m gonna try and fix it