Notyourmoms

I'm still alive guys. I'm just mostly on discord these days.
          	So if anyone has sent me gifts here, I might be late thanking you all for them. 
          	
          	Maybe inbox me, because it might get lost in the notifications.

DiamondHeart2007

Bro where the hell does your art come from LMAO

Notyourmoms

@DiamondHeart2007  you're going to need to be more specific. You mean my profile picture? The art in my videos? My deviant art? My top secret desktop por-  I mean,  collection of images I keep planning to do shipping videos with. >___>
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Notyourmoms

Anyone else have hand scars? 
          The injury so bad you had to have stitches. 
          I have scars on my palm. If you're into palm reading, I have a scar going from the life line to the first knuckle (or whatever the inside/palm side is called) of the pointer finger. It feels like a string is there where the scar is. 
          The scar that bugs me the most is across my thumb, I mean my thumb print has a noticeable scar line in it (if you ever needed to find me :p). When I bump my thumb just right.... it hurts like a -bleep-bleeping. The fuuuuuun thing is... it's my dominant hand. So holding a pen or drawing alot hurts after a while because it's pressing on that old scar. 
          
          Just wondering if anyone else feels the annoyance of palm or just over all hand scars. Also, you're not alone in old injuries still giving you trouble after many years.

Emo_girl3365

@Notyourmoms I have scars all over my body 
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iamfemchickenwing

@Notyourmoms  I do I have a scar on my thumb I sliced it open with a Really sharp knife
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Notyourmoms

I keep saying to myself  "if you are more active in posting your writing and drawings. You will get fan art! On your birthday and maybe holidays." 
          ..... This motivation doesn't seem to work great, it's good closer to the day but after I just get sad because if I was just more motivated! If I found a way to draw and write more! If I could let the flow continue when it starts, and not have it interrupted by RL stuff. 
          *Sigh* ...... Maybe I should draw myself a belated present.

Notyourmoms

Yeah. If I do draw myself something it will probably be Brainstorm, I kinda want a Brainstorm drawing. 
            Or Megatron x Ratchet, that's always good.
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Notyourmoms

Okay. A veeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrry  verrrrrrry VERY late update.
          
          You guys know that oneshot book I've been promising. It's been pushed to the side and I feel horrible for hyping the whole me actually giving you guys a book with actual Transformers fanfiction. My drive to actually do it was to test the waters with what you guys would accept/like before I jumped into a big multi-chapters TFP book named "an Optic for a Heart" (stupid name I know but I called the file that until I could think a better title for it).  Welp...... I've fallen a little out of TFP and I spent stupidly way too much time trying to make my OC for it all correct in size and transformation pieces.... which I NOW know doesn't even fragging matter!!! (also real life punched me in the guts hard too) No one cares if the size of Swichblade's wings is correct in if they are bigger or smaller then Starscream's or if it will be LOGICAL that she is taller or shorter then the other Decepticons! LITRALLY, I now know that no one would have cared. The final nail to me just tossing the fic out the window and burning it is when I discovered the comics, specifically MTMTE. Don't feel bad, seriously, Switchblade was kinda bad. because spoilers (to a fic i will never even finish... okay maaaybe I'll bring her into a cameo in a different fic) .....you know Pharma. I yeeted Switchblade into the dark depths of the 'box of OC death' because once Pharma showed up in my reading of the comics. That was it. [[I'll explain in a reply to this]] I lit that fic on fire and burned it.
          *COUGH*
          
          The oneshot book was planned to be mostly TFP one-shots and me challenging myself with different things in the fandom. Like using rarely used theories and just me making stuff different from the more common fic stuff. This was a cool idea but stupid. 
          
          I'll TRY to finish up the 3 (cuz the 4th is carp) oneshots but likely not do a TFP fic again.... cuz I'm a ball of social anxiety.

Notyourmoms

[[3/final]]
            Implanting a false memory of her crush violently (verbally) ripping her heart, tearing it to pieces & stomping on it before (basically) telling her that she will never be a medic cuz no respectable hospital on Cybertron will hire her. That her idea of making a false Cybertronian will never work & she will never be respected as any kind of scientist nor loved by anyone if she actually succeeded. So she should just give up. cuz her dreams will never happen.
            Ouch. It's not until much later that she realizes she was tricked & that the bot never betrayed her. The 'master' admits they deceived her, which isn't such a shock since long before that, they told her she isn't blessed by nor does Primus support the cons. The autobots never looked for her because they thought she died when the base was destroyed. So when he saw that she's alive, he was crushed to find out she was the one to violently betray them. He was spark-broken when one he considered a close friend, suddenly demand he ask for forgiveness & he's to blame for the deaths; he was hurt she so violently harmed him, took his optic & delighted in causing him pain and torture. But... It was too late. Switchblade already drowned & died in a deep dark sea, every part of her was created & drenched in pure heartbroken dark despair. When he saw this false memory, he was surprised that she believed it. aannd... I just left what happens to be figured out later cuz, you guys probably wouldn't like the story before I even get to the whole her taking his optic thing. So, maybe see if you guys want a happy ending or sad. cuz no one is maybe reading this, I liked the idea of him confessing that back then he loved her too. That he wouldn't have reacted to her love confession like the false him did, if she ever took apart the arm he replaced on her, a sappy word like 'beloved' is etched in a rod. That he looked for that part but prime eventually told them to move on. If he forgives or a tiny bit still loves her. idk.
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Notyourmoms

[[part 2]]
            Here's the psycho part. Switchblade plans on JUST ripping the Autobot's optic out, not killing him first then removing it off his corpse. No, he will be alive during it & if he bleeds to death after so be it, but he WILL be alive & awake when she does it. He will feel it & he will know she is the one who did it. He will know he's the reason she is a Decepticon now & it's his fault for those autobots dieing in that old base (this betrayal happened before season 1 so, no official tfp-cannon bots died). If he begs her for forgiveness & admits he was wrong, she will grant him mercy & surgically remove it so he can maybe replace it or later convince her to give it back. [I planned to see how fans felt around this chapter's point of this happening. See if he gets mercy or a bloody face scaring removal. Same for if Megs crushes the gift or keeps it as a trophy or lets her keep it.]
            Now, you maybe thinking “what the frag did he do?” Well, since I don't plan to actually do this fic anymore. Switchblade was deceived from the very start. Back when she was an Autobot, she was extremely desperate to help the autobots win & restore Cybertron, thus the whole idea to turn willing humans (or just one) into something close to Cybertronian. She prayed & prayed with her whole heart desperately to Primus to help them & guidance. Well, someone heard her... & they liked her strong passion, desire to sacrifice everything (including herself), & borderline mad scientist thing, except it wasn't Primus whom heard her. To make her go to their desired path & string her perfectly into their puppet. They made her totally... snap. 
            [[dam I'm long winded. Continued below]]
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Notyourmoms

OKAY. You see, Switchblade in a nutshell was obsessive in science and medical stuff, also she turned fragging crazy. She was basically an Autobot until one of them utterly shattered her (or so she thinks) & in pure rage she betrayed all of them. Running from the base & calling up Megatron & proclaiming she wishes to join them; as proof of her being serious she gave him the location of the Autobot base, hoping the b****d who betrayed her dies. However, the bots escaped but enough did die that Megs is convinced that she didn't lie. He accepts her but doesn't trust her, denying her access to most of the database especially any scientific or medical files. This royally pisses her the frag off because she promised Megs she will give him an army using a project she was planning in secret when she was a bot. Of course this project is twisted dark because f*** the humans and f*** Autobot sympathy for them.
            Megs leaves Star in charge. In that time Switch, fueled by pure passionate deep rage against a certain bot; continues sneaky research & experimentation. She succeeds, just barely, & is mostly pissed at Soundwave for obeying Megs even thou he's been gone for years; if he allowed her access she wouldn't have failed, only barely succeeding making one 'soldier' by a very thin thread. Star points out that Megs might like coming back to see the new recruit is more knowledgeable then a drone. Soundwave is all "she managed to find a way around the restrictions." (all sarcastic)
            When Megatron returns, Switchblade again proclaims her loyalty & he's impressed by her success (even though she can't repeat it because it's pure luck she did it & killed veihcons to barely save that one) despite Sounds being so loyal. He grants her access to the database so that she can hopefully succeed in giving him that army. 
            She swears to him that she will prove herself worthy of being a decepticon by giving him the optic of the one that betrayed her. (thus the title) 
            [[more explanation below]]
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