Novaling19

Wow did I really forget that this app and my cringey stories existed for like 2 years????
          	The simple answer: yes, I did.
          	
          	So a lot has happened since I last updated y’all on my life!! First off, I didn’t move out to Colorado with the guy I was seeing. We fell apart and he moved on with his life quick. I’m still a little upset with how things happened, but hey it’s part of life right?? With that said, I still moved!! I’m now living in Tennessee and have purchased a whole acre of land to build my future dream house on!! I really do miss my fitness and family in NJ, but this is a big step towards me doing so much more than I could’ve done staying there. 
          	My ex never made contact with me again, which is a bit of a relief. I do still look over my shoulder and jump at notifications sometimes, but I’m slowly getting better. We were doing foster care for a little while, but after being failed by the system (told there was 0 chance for re-unification, and then she was ripped away out of nowhere), we opted it would be best to stop. We also wouldn’t have had a place for a child to stay once my sister turned 18 in a few months from then. 
          	
          	But here’s the big part(s) of why I stepped away for so long.. 
          	I posted my first story that I wrote for my little sister here to keep it safe. After that, I found a friend who inspired me and pushed me to keep writing. It was something we seemed to become really good friends through. After we fell apart, I kinda lost inspiration and motivation to keep going with writing. I wanted to write so many stories with characters based off of her, but I couldn’t do that anymore because it didn’t feel right. 
          	With all this said, I want to get back into writing again!! I e now had more than enough life experiences to turn into stories and have found new inspiration!!
          	
          	I wish you all a safe and wonderful spooky month!!
          	-Nova

Novaling19

(Oh almost forgot, my knees never got better only worse. I have now been diagnosed with Osteoarthritis!!)
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Novaling19

Wow did I really forget that this app and my cringey stories existed for like 2 years????
          The simple answer: yes, I did.
          
          So a lot has happened since I last updated y’all on my life!! First off, I didn’t move out to Colorado with the guy I was seeing. We fell apart and he moved on with his life quick. I’m still a little upset with how things happened, but hey it’s part of life right?? With that said, I still moved!! I’m now living in Tennessee and have purchased a whole acre of land to build my future dream house on!! I really do miss my fitness and family in NJ, but this is a big step towards me doing so much more than I could’ve done staying there. 
          My ex never made contact with me again, which is a bit of a relief. I do still look over my shoulder and jump at notifications sometimes, but I’m slowly getting better. We were doing foster care for a little while, but after being failed by the system (told there was 0 chance for re-unification, and then she was ripped away out of nowhere), we opted it would be best to stop. We also wouldn’t have had a place for a child to stay once my sister turned 18 in a few months from then. 
          
          But here’s the big part(s) of why I stepped away for so long.. 
          I posted my first story that I wrote for my little sister here to keep it safe. After that, I found a friend who inspired me and pushed me to keep writing. It was something we seemed to become really good friends through. After we fell apart, I kinda lost inspiration and motivation to keep going with writing. I wanted to write so many stories with characters based off of her, but I couldn’t do that anymore because it didn’t feel right. 
          With all this said, I want to get back into writing again!! I e now had more than enough life experiences to turn into stories and have found new inspiration!!
          
          I wish you all a safe and wonderful spooky month!!
          -Nova

Novaling19

(Oh almost forgot, my knees never got better only worse. I have now been diagnosed with Osteoarthritis!!)
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Novaling19

So life update time!!!
          
          I had to go to court against my ex because he made 57+ accounts to stalk and harass me. They denied a permanent restraining order because he was "of no physical threat" since he can't drive and lives 15 minutes away (BS he can get an uber ride to my work, school, or house!!) and he seemed sorry (BS again). The judge did give him a warning to leave me alone saying that if he starts this all up again and I have to go back to court about it, he will not have the same mercy.
          
          I then had one of my sister's (sisters friend but still family to me) taken away after being promised she could live with us. She was forced to live with family in Washington state (I'm in NJ). She was told she could visit whenever she wanted, but once she got out there, her dad went "nope I lied you can't leave this state until you are 18".
          
          Then I went to visit my BF in Colorado and have decided that I am going to live out there at the end of this year!!! I want out of this awful state and away from all the drama and chaos. I want to start a "new life" with him and finally be happy again!!!.

Novaling19

Ever miss someone while still being upset with them?
          
          Yeah, me too. Sometimes I wish I could talk to you again like how we did when we first became friends. I choose to remember the good times more than the bad, but it's still painful to think of the good sometimes. We both reacted out of pain and that didn't help at all. wish we could talk as adults and at least settle things between us, even if we never talk again.
          
          (THIS IS NOT FOR MY EX-BF!!!!)

Novaling19

My 2020 so far:
          
          Broke up with my toxic clingy BF.
          Met someone new who is absolutely amazing.
          Got to know said guy a little bit better.
          Had my ex stalking and harassing me via text and calls.
          Got super anxious while writing about my past relationship as a way of coping.
          
          Can it be July already, at least I know some good stuff will happen then!!

Novaling19

That wonderful moment you decide to write down all the BS your ex put you through, and you get to that one part that is the worst possible event for you and you are now stuck sitting on your floor shaking and unable to breathe or think properly. Yeah, that's what I'm doing at 11:30pm on a Saturday night. F this feeling!!!

Novaling19

Phycho update:
          
          HE IS GONE!! FINALLY!!
          
          I just got the news today that he is officially out of town and state he's now in Arizona. What confused me is that he was so concerned with everyone apparently going after his family, bit left them here and went ahead. He felt they were under attack and left them with us, the evil people. In summary, I'm just happy he's finally gone!! 
          
          -A

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Update (9/26/19): apparently the cops felt that since phycho had both mine and my brothers lisence plate numbers, it would be best to "visit" my job and keep an eye on us for safety reasons. I just found this out last night and that really helps to make me feel safe in my community. Thank you!!!
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Novaling19

I know I just got back from my hiatus, but I might not be here a lot because of an idiot. There's a guy accusing my dad of being corrupt and stalking his family in his "blue van". Jokes on him, nobody in my house owns a blue van. We aren't the only ones he's going after tho. He's after the mayor, his wife, the police, etc. I'm terrified that he's going to show up at my parents real estate office and go after them physically or show up at my job and hurt me.
          
          He left us alone for a bit, but now he's going after us again and I don't really feel safe online atm. Because if this, I'm gonna be kinda spotty online so if you see anything posted and you ask a question or leave a comment, just know I'm not trying to ignore you. I'm just scared for me and my family's life and safety.
          
          Thank you all for understanding ❤️
          
          -Alex

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Okay do I don't post right at midnight, but I was close enough with 12:05am!! 
          
          I also posted a little explaination titled "after the story" to give some insight into hat made me write the story. Now that's it's finished, I will have to come up with some more new ideas as to what to write next. 
          
          But first, I need sleep. With that I will say goodnight and until my next brilliant idea, Adieu to you!!
          
          -Alex