He suddenly appeared in my life and I cared so much about him, like always to much today is the last day I might be seeing him and my heart breaks thinking of this thought. His no our longing stares will always be etched in my memory and heart forever he will be. I know deep down I'm not good enough for him, and my life is to stressful to bring him into it. That and we will soon be apart and he shouldn't have to wait for me, he shouldn't have to care about me when I'll be gone. We are from two different worlds no matter how much we have in common and how much i love running my hands through his hair smiling lovestruck. I miss him already and I haven't even left yet. But he will be going on a trip and by the time he comes back I might be gone. I'll be nothing but a memory, we might always think about what could have been and what we were to scared to start. I like him and he might like me back but life doesn't care about that, my life is too screwed up for him to be with me. Yet I long to hold his hand, stay on the phone all night with him, how I long to tell him about it. This time it's serious, this time I can't help but look into his eyes while he looks back into mine. I am too far into his mixed signals and cheeky smiles and he's different from the rest.