Novodontia

do you guys ever get so obsessed over a character that you feel violently ill and deeply saddened that they aren't real and aren't around you. like you GENUINELY miss them. or are you normal yes or no

Novodontia

Guys I think the reason I hate it when people mischaracterize Azure so much is because I was ALSO betrayed by someone I loved dearly, and was filled with nothing but rage for a very long time towards him
          
          We're on good terms now, but I'll never forget that heartbreak. And so when people are like "awwww azure forgives two time! two time did nothing wrong! even tho they literally stabbed him to death azure is okay!"
          
          SHUT UP PLEASE T-T azure wouldn't be like that
          
          I could also say something similar for the mischaracterization of 1x but that's for another day

Novodontia

Fuckkkkk why am I so bad at drawing. I have a love hate relationship with seeing other people's art online, because on one hand it fills me with a deep sense of appreciation, a desire to improve, and a creative passion I get from nothing else.
          
          But on the other hand it fills me with a bitter jealousy that threatens to swallow me whole. I will never be good enough. I will never be able to make what I imagine because my hands shake too much. I don't have the right tools. I don't have the right mindset. I'm not bad at art. But I'm not good enough.
          
          Is this what true envy and hate feels like? God, it's disgusting.