Novodontia

the minecraft movie may be the best movie since parkour civilization. me and my friend kept chanting ‘kiss, kiss, kiss,’ every time steve and garrett has sexual tension (all the time. it was all the time.)

Novodontia

god i hate feeling this way. so pathetic. he’s so pretty and smart and kind, and he’s so PERFECT. i love him so much i could scream, and every time i think of him i feel a pang in my gut. he’s such a dork and i love that about him.
          
          i hate him a bit, too. well, i don’t hate him. i hate that he’s so oblivious to my flirting, and i hate how no matter how much i like him it’s likely that he’ll never like me.
          
          even if he DOES like me he’s not allowed to date me. his parents won’t let him. i don’t blame them but ughhhhh. i just wanna know how his lips feel against mine. i wanna be able to tell him exactly how i feel. i wanna be held. 
          
          but damn it all, i need him more than he needs me.
          
          he has no clue, either. i’ve done SO much to try and give him a sign. after one of the nights of the musical ended, i gave him a yellow daffodil (he put it in his hair, which was really cute). at the cast party i asked him if he wanted to be my wife (albeit jokingly) and he said yes, then i implied i wanted to make out with him in the woods. every time we’re sitting next to each other i kick my legs onto his lap.
          
          WE BOTH EVEN LOVE YAOI AND WEEZER. HE MATCHES MY FREAK.
          
          maybe it’s not meant to be. but i’m afraid i’ve fallen for him, and i’m deathly afraid of my own feelings. i feel like such a fool, and such a freak at the same time. is it guilt? fear? i don’t know. 
          
          i just know that he’s an awesome friend, and i don’t want to lose him. i’ll wait for him. even if it takes a really long time.

Novodontia

i keep wanting to apologize for writing so much about him recently, but then i remembered: no one really follows me or reads this aside from me LOL-
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Chat my life is SOOO weird rn
          
          - The musical that I've dedicated the last three months to ended
          - My stepmom kinda fucking hates me rn 
          - The guy I have a crush on doesn't like me back but also he "hasn't considered it" so I might have a chance??
          - I just got finished being sick and so I'm sleep deprived and miserable 
          - but also I'm so fucking happy and I love my friends so fucking much