Hi there, I really hope you will solve your situation well and continue to stay strong. I really do love your book "Swan" and hope you return quickly, if you do have any problems you wish to vent out, I'm sure your subscribers will gladly help, seeing as I'm a more objective person rather then a person who comforts others easily, if you need a clear mind to help you out, my messages are always free. I hope this will get better for you as I'm sure it will have to at some point.