You can ignore this if you want, I just want to share my problem since I have no friend to talk to.
I'm used to think my surrounding was positive, but not anymore.
I living in the house like abandoned house in forest used in haunted house movie. Yeah, no safety and no privacy.
I being tied by word called family, and I have no driving license. Even I'm now an adult, I can't do anything. Forbid me to work outside the village, forbid me to work till night, forbid me to work at industry, and even dislike if I try to find job that have big salary.
My father never happy to see me buy anything pricey, even though it's just bed that not even that expensive. Never want to provide even smallest things like washing machine.
My room leaked, no door or wall at all, just covered with curtains that I even have to buy myself. Bathroom, worse. The door was off, since I'm 12, and if wind was hard, it hit me. With luck, I'm glad I never get harassed or R at this state of house.
Even I tried to run, I have no studies certificate make it hard to have job. No money, not much opportunity.
Well, that why I'm under psychiatrist right now so I didn't end myself or other.
I wonder if I write oneshoot at Substack and Ko-fi, will I even make money. I'm scared to even try.
Really, you guys who still study, keep study hard alright? Since that really important in life.
Well, I just wanna share since I being called useless again today...
