NullVasity

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To whoever decides to read this.
          	
          	I hate myself.
          	
          	It's a broad sentence, if you think about it.
          	
          	"What do you hate yourself for? You look nice! You're very kind!" 
          	
          	I know, I look human, I don't really care, as long as I just look presentable. 
          	
          	I know I'm sometimes kind, I know better than to blow up on people or cause a problem.
          	
          	"Then what?"
          	
          	I hate how I am right now. I feel like at an all time low.
          	
          	I haven't gone to school for the past 6 days because I've been staying up late. My mother scolds me for this and my therapist even questions this.
          	
          	I'm 16, soon to be 17, and eventually a legal adult. 
          	
          	I'm stuck in my own fantasy box and it's bad. 
          	
          	I want to learn to drive but I never push that stuff on. 
          	
          	I want to be independent, but I consume media the night of.
          	
          	It's bad and I am aware but doing nothing like how the public school system is aware it suck and it isn't attempting to do better. 
          	
          	I need to rest properly and fix my attendance.
          	
          	Because, I need to prove my independency and to keep it.
          	
          	To grow up, it was always a scary idea to me when I was younger because I was afraid of distancing relationships as years passed by. Then slowly I was afraid because of how unprepared I am.
          	
          	I need to get out of this mindset, which is why I wrote this. I need to write out about this and better myself.
          	
          	I am not willing to be stuck at home jobless for the future and depending on my poor mother for shit.
          	
          	I am not willing to prove my dependency.
          	
          	I will wake up at 5:15 in the morning everyday to school until winter break.
          	
          	If I can write and draw, I can do this. 
          	
          	I just need to stop trapping myself in my box and step out of it for once.

NullVasity

este mensaje puede ser ofensivo 
To whoever decides to read this.
          
          I hate myself.
          
          It's a broad sentence, if you think about it.
          
          "What do you hate yourself for? You look nice! You're very kind!" 
          
          I know, I look human, I don't really care, as long as I just look presentable. 
          
          I know I'm sometimes kind, I know better than to blow up on people or cause a problem.
          
          "Then what?"
          
          I hate how I am right now. I feel like at an all time low.
          
          I haven't gone to school for the past 6 days because I've been staying up late. My mother scolds me for this and my therapist even questions this.
          
          I'm 16, soon to be 17, and eventually a legal adult. 
          
          I'm stuck in my own fantasy box and it's bad. 
          
          I want to learn to drive but I never push that stuff on. 
          
          I want to be independent, but I consume media the night of.
          
          It's bad and I am aware but doing nothing like how the public school system is aware it suck and it isn't attempting to do better. 
          
          I need to rest properly and fix my attendance.
          
          Because, I need to prove my independency and to keep it.
          
          To grow up, it was always a scary idea to me when I was younger because I was afraid of distancing relationships as years passed by. Then slowly I was afraid because of how unprepared I am.
          
          I need to get out of this mindset, which is why I wrote this. I need to write out about this and better myself.
          
          I am not willing to be stuck at home jobless for the future and depending on my poor mother for shit.
          
          I am not willing to prove my dependency.
          
          I will wake up at 5:15 in the morning everyday to school until winter break.
          
          If I can write and draw, I can do this. 
          
          I just need to stop trapping myself in my box and step out of it for once.