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My.....attempt failed.
Last night, I planned all of it. Tied the rope by the hook, wrote a suicide note and stood on a chair, waiting for all of this to end.
Waiting for the time, where everyone will finally be happy.
Without me.
I already hung the noose around my neck and tried to kick the chair off from under my feet-
But, I stopped. At first, I was screaming to myself to stop being such a fucking wuss and die already.
But, I couldn't.
I didn't move.
Everyone. Every one of you guys, popped out from my head. All your happy, smiling faces and contagious laughs rang onto my ears.
My soul. It was burning, begging, for me to stop being so coward and weak.
It tried reasoning with me. That everyone could find different ways of being happy without me.
But, I didn't believe it. I knew, that you guys were all that I needed to be happy. Ignore sadness, I could let joy control over my life if I can.
I stopped, and removed the noose around my neck and untied the rope, threw it to the ground and crouched on the floor, crying for a few minutes, thinking how idiotic I was to try and do that.
But, a bittersweet smile was on my face. That was all I needed.
Zoey, Vivi, Psy, Arlene, Kate....everyone. Everyone's happy faces were reflecting against my own.
I..actually chuckled for a few minutes to myself before sniffling and standing up, crumpling the suicide note and throwing it out the window.
Before walking outside, ready to faca any damn obstacle.
With everyone, by my side.