Nyxhito
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To anyone whoās still reading,
Hey. I donāt really know how to start this, so I guess Iāll just say it plaināIām stepping away from Wattpad.
When I first joined, I really thought this app would light a fire in me. I thought sharing my sto-ry I worked on for months with strangers might help me stay motivated, and have a reason to keep living for something. I imagined getting a comment here and there, maybe someone waiting for the next chapter, or just a few people enjoying what I write. Nothing big. Just a sign that someoneās out there.
But the truth isāI barely get a view a day. Most days, itās just me refreshing the stats and feeling kinda dumb for caring so much. Itās not about fame or numbers, but damn, it gets heavy put-ting your heart into something and feeling like itās invisible.
So Iām taking a break. Or quitting. I donāt know if Iāll come back. Maybe one day. Iām just tired of pouring energy into a space that gives nothing back. Spending nights doing one chapter. It starts to feel personal after a while, even if I know itās not.
If you did read anything I posted, if you ever left a vote or a comment or enjoyed my OCās bickering, I really, really mean it when I say: thank you. That matters more than you think.
For now, Iām just gonna write for myself again. No pressure, no stats, no chasing ghosts. If I return, I hope itās because I miss the joy, not be-cause Iām desperate for it.
Take care of yourselves,
Dieko
Kaizabird
@Nyxhito I'm replying. Pretend I said stuff like I said in your message in my profile. Man, that's what I felt with fallen seraph</3 It's my actual first book on wattpad, but I can't say shi. Again, me love your wording. Very poetic. (I'm a sucker for those) Basically, take care of yourself, your mental health, and yeah, keep writing your passion and come back when you want to:D
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Nyxhito
To anyone whoās still reading,
Hey. I donāt really know how to start this, so I guess Iāll just say it plaināIām stepping away from Wattpad.
When I first joined, I really thought this app would light a fire in me. I thought sharing my sto-ry I worked on for months with strangers might help me stay motivated, and have a reason to keep living for something. I imagined getting a comment here and there, maybe someone waiting for the next chapter, or just a few people enjoying what I write. Nothing big. Just a sign that someoneās out there.
But the truth isāI barely get a view a day. Most days, itās just me refreshing the stats and feeling kinda dumb for caring so much. Itās not about fame or numbers, but damn, it gets heavy put-ting your heart into something and feeling like itās invisible.
So Iām taking a break. Or quitting. I donāt know if Iāll come back. Maybe one day. Iām just tired of pouring energy into a space that gives nothing back. Spending nights doing one chapter. It starts to feel personal after a while, even if I know itās not.
If you did read anything I posted, if you ever left a vote or a comment or enjoyed my OCās bickering, I really, really mean it when I say: thank you. That matters more than you think.
For now, Iām just gonna write for myself again. No pressure, no stats, no chasing ghosts. If I return, I hope itās because I miss the joy, not be-cause Iām desperate for it.
Take care of yourselves,
Dieko
Kaizabird
@Nyxhito I'm replying. Pretend I said stuff like I said in your message in my profile. Man, that's what I felt with fallen seraph</3 It's my actual first book on wattpad, but I can't say shi. Again, me love your wording. Very poetic. (I'm a sucker for those) Basically, take care of yourself, your mental health, and yeah, keep writing your passion and come back when you want to:D
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Nyxhito
CHAT i'm entering a writing contest. Need ur feedback on the poem~~
MIster Shadow (i'll rename it later cuz i ave a lazy a~)
Dear silhouette stitched to my feet,
you move when I do, never wander astray.
Mimicking smiles I failed to keep,
then vanish at the moonās arrival.
Born from a fire, trapped in the sky,
You trail me like a bodyguard.
Not quite alive, not yet awry,
but ghost sewn inside of me.
I wear you like a second skin,
borrowed, brittle, forsaken,
You linger in the hush between hours,
patient as ruin, faithful as rot.
You'd dance along the morning walls,
a fleeting shape in the fragile sizzle of dawn.
Edges shift with dawnās first calls,
that fades before day takes flight.
Followed through my worst mistake,
As if you craved the mess in me.
I bend, I break, I shift, I feignā
but remain to hold your steadfast loyalty.
Lurking ever at varied edges,
My echo adheres, leaving only nightās embrace.
Though I begged the quiet cosmos to swallow you whole,
to vanquish you like smoke pirouetting on sunlit scrolls,
you lingerāan echo that thumps beneath my skin.
A restless rhythm in the cathedral of my sins.
The spirit I never summoned, yet cannot flee,
The only will to live thatās left humming in me.
Thank you, Mister Shadow, for standing by me,
my silent guide who never lets me be.
Nyxhito
@Kaizabird just realized the link doesn't work so just search up "Polar expression summer contests"
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Nyxhito
@Kaizabird JUST sent it in (i forgot hat i named it.... i think it was shadowborne :D) ANYWAYS. this s the contest if you wanna enter but u aeve to live in canada :D. https://form.jotform.com/242466465488268. Thanks for the support . :D hope you hagd
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Nyxhito
Hey everyone! I'm Diekoāthough around here, I go by the code name Nyxhito. I'm just a work-in-progress teen trying to figure things out and make something cool along the way.
My book Anomaly was something I started back in February... and then kinda abandoned (oops). But recently, I got a sudden burst of motivationāand maybe a little courageāand decided to finally share it here.
Hope you enjoy the chaos that is Ash and Miloās constant bickering. Thanks a ton for checking out my channel and giving it a shot. You're awesome.