..Just something small. Just a small vent or.. it’s kinda not but it is
Like an explanation yaknow?..
..I absolutely hate being tied with my past. All I really want to do is just enjoy things I like and join servers freely, without having to fear that.. they are there or that I’ll get banned because “I support h i m”
I honestly don’t. Well, what he did. I never really hate people themselves. Just what they did
He said he doesn’t remember anything when I was still friends. He doesn’t remember anything now. I’m unsure if I can believe him but I chose to.
..I genuinely miss everyone. And I hate what I did. I’m genuinely sorry you had to put up with attention seeking 11 year old me. I want to run back so badly. But I have to accept that they no longer want me in their life. I have to accept the people I have now.. but it’s hard to. I don’t exactly know if they truly do.. or just miss me slightly? I’ll be happy to come back but I want them to be comfortable with me back. But I’m sure they don’t.
.. I’m so sorry. I realise the mistakes I made. I want to come back.. or at least not be banned? Haha lol I had no idea that you two were friends at the time.. I didn’t come looking for you on purpose. I just wanted to join a server that had people in the same fandom I was in.
...I hope but also don’t hope that they see this. If you know you know, if you don’t.. thats good. Keep it that way. You know who you are.
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