ObsessedwithTidam

Happy Birthday @obsessedwithtivi I love you and miss you so much! As I did last year, I'll spend this week rereading all your stories. 

It's been a year since we lost Sandra (ObsessedwithTivi) and it still hurts just as much. I  wanted to have something to post today but as this date crept closer and closer I just couldn't bring myself to finish anything. I shall reread some of my favorite stories of hers today and I encourage you all to do the same. She may be gone but her books can continue to live on and inspire people. 

Congratulations! Can’t wait to catch up...on everyone and everything!

Good news! I've finally been able to write again. I started a chapter for a new story (had it in my head for a while) and hope to get a few chapters finished before I publish but I'm heading in the right direction. Hopefully, this is the beginning of regular writing sessions.

I've been rereading my story lately, trying to get back into the mood to write. I came across a single comment that has completely crushed my spirit.
          
          Road Trip, chapter Eighty eight, comment from ObsessedwithTivi: "This story is going to be the reason I die an early death."
          
          
          

Happy Birthday @ObsessedwithTivi. I miss you so much! 

Sigh... some of you know what's going on with my life right now but most of you don't have the specifics. I've been on disability for the last two years while healing from Legionnaires pneumonia. I've slowly been getting better but haven't been able to return to work yet. Well, the company paying my disability up and decided I didn't qualify anymore and cut off my payments with little notice. Even while on disability my income accounted for 90% of our household money so to say this caused some stress is a major understatement. I got this news just days before my beloved Tivi passed away. Can I just say that my mental health has truly been tested this last month. Anyway, we packed all our belongings, put them in storage, and moved in with my sister on Sept 30th. I'm just trying to keep our phones on and my car payment and insurance paid right now while I look for a job. 
          I have an interview on the 8th for a position that I'm really hoping to get; any prayers for that to go well would be greatly appreciated. Wednesday night I fly to Nashville to see the guys at The Ryman both nights. The trip was paid for before I lost my income and the plane tickets are nonrefundable so I'm going to go and try to enjoy myself. A wonderful fry friend has said she'll make sure I don't starve while I'm there since I really don't have the money to be earning out while traveling. Home Fries truly are the greatest group of people ever. 
          Anyway, I've been stupid busy and depressed lately and that's kept me from writing. I promise I'll continue my book at some point, maybe after I've secured a job, maybe after I've seen the guys this weekend. It will all depend on how I'm feeling and if inspiration hits. Any prayers you're willing to throw my way would be appreciated. 
          

I'm not sure what I really came here to say. I guess I just wanted you all to know that I'm still here and will continue writing eventually. I've been traveling for 10 days, going to 6 HF concerts, 5 with UVIP. It's been fun, tiring, and very emotional. I can't tell you how many times I've cried this past week right in the middle of the concert because something reminded me of Tivi. I'm flying home today and moving this weekend. Maybe once I get settled I'll try to get back to some type of normalcy. And now I'm crying again, talk to you all again soon. 

I know I already didn't post regularly, taking long breaks some times, but I have no idea when I'll get another chapter up. Just seeing this app on my phone hurts right now. I'm sorry. I know we are all missing her and her updates. 
          I'm still just trying to make it more than a few hours without crying. I'm lost. 

Hi, Home Fries. Let me apologize right now because this is not a happy post. 
          One of our own, @ObsessedwithTivi , passed away unexpectedly in her sleep today. We may have never met but we've talked everyday for the last two years and I loved her. I'm just in shock and don't even know what to do with myself right now.