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Hey guys, I need to vent for a second, or whatever the hell it's called.
idk how to do any of this shit? But I guess trigger warning or something? Idk
I'm gonna fucking lose my mind I swear to god but for the past couple of months I have been c*tting myself so much recently, I was desperately trying to find ways to relieve stress but none of them have been working, it got so bad to the point where I just ended up harming myself so much, I don't feel like I can stop and I fucking hate it, I hate it so God damn much, I look like shit irl and I hate myself so much, I have been praying non stop, I can't sleep, I'm tired, I'm tired all the time, I just feel so fucking lazy, I've been so afraid of telling my parents any of this and what I have been doing, idk how to tell I'm lgbt, idk how to tell them I have different opinions idk how to tell them anything, I'm so scared of getting kicked out the house or something, idk if I'm gonna make it adulthood, I don't want to be an adult, I'm already hurting so damn much, my shoulders hurt, everything hurts, it's so fucking exhausting, I can't stop harming myself, pls help, I don't wanna keep having multiple thoughts of k*lling myself