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I'm crying into he bathroom I hate it. Why do I have to be the bad one at everything? Why does she always outshine me? Am I just naturally bad? Why does it have to be in front of him. Why. Why. It's always me that's being embarrassed. Then I have the audacity to say that I have a tErRibLe life, when all it comes to is being a faulure and disappointment. I hate this. I wanna stay in the bathroom until we leave. I never wanna see anyone nor anything ever again. And then after this I'll be forced to go downstairs, and pretend I just went to shit when I actually was crying like a fucking baby in the damn BATHROOM. I hate how im posting this to a bunch of fucking strangers, where nobody is gonna read this, all because I don't know where to fucking write this. I hate it all. I'll be fucking happy in under an hour soon, why am I fucking writing this? I hate how I'm making this all super cliche. Like I'm the main character in some dumb movie or something and my prince charimg will appear when he's probably laughing at my misery.