I’m literally writing this all for myself but it’s a good way to let all these feelings out. For months I was depressed. Since December, I’ve been going through some really tuff times. I cried so often and I always felt defeated. I didn’t know how to make myself feel better. I was constantly sad but I always did my best to hide it from those I love. I never showed anyone how sad I really was, how broken I was on the inside. Some people I really loved and cared for turned their backs on me and watched me burn down. I think that was my breaking point. It wasn’t cause those people just left me, it was cause I knew how stupid it was of me to open up to somebody. I trusted people with everything. I was taken advantage of, mentally and emotionally. I was hurt and naive and willing to do whatever. It’s been four months since I got up and changed everything. I decided that I wasn’t gonna dwell over people who didn’t wanna be in my life. Those people left for a reason, maybe they shouldn’t have been here in the first place. One month later I started to feel whole again. I started acting like myself. I started hanging out with people who better me and bring positivity into my life. Depression is not a topic to be taken lightly. It wasn’t till a few months after that I realized how serious my feelings were. I couldn’t shake that sad feeling. I had depression. But I brought myself back and I’m happy. I’m genuinely happy. I have people in my life who love me. People who care for me. This feels right. I have someone who loves me unconditionally. I don’t just say that because it’s what I’ve heard from him, cause actions speak louder than words. I’m happy. I’m me again.
