Hey guys my depression has been acting up really bad lately and I'm not sure if it's because of my family, friends or my crush. I'm afraid of isolation and being forgotten, and with everything I do I feel like people hate me and want me to die. I get stared at and talked about in school, and it's not the first time I've had to change middle schools every year because of bullying. I wish my friends understood that I'm hurting inside and their actions of ignoring me and not comforting me when that's what I do for them all the time, is just making my anxiety, confidence, depression, sleep, stress, and emotions worse. It sucks lacking certain emotions like I do but I try and get through it and I feel like I've been left in the freezing cold, left to die by everyone who I trust. My family is worst then they are too and having to see next my crush at school and know that they don't date people is so draining and painful. I feel lost and alone, it's so cold inside that I've been hurting and having so many more mental breakdowns and I'm sorry if this is super sad and brings you down but I need to tell you guys before you start getting upset about how long it's taking to update. I'm really pushing myself and trying to do this for you guys and I'm sorry if it takes a bit.
Your sad ghost boi,
Oliver