Oliviaxluna

I want you to know but I don't want to tell you. I want you to see that I'm not getting better. I want you to understand me. But you don't. I say the right things and act like I'm fine and you get this look ~ this smile filled with pride as if your happy that you've fixed me. You havent. You say im always busy and avoiding you. I'm not avoiding you. I have to be busy. Or else I'll crash and fall. I'm not playing the victim. I don't tell you im not ok. That's me fighting. don't act like you care when your just bored and I seem like a project.

Leanney-hayley

@Oliviaxluna I should have known...I didnt like her because she was mean to you but I wish she was still here giving us a hard time
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Oliviaxluna

I want you to know but I don't want to tell you. I want you to see that I'm not getting better. I want you to understand me. But you don't. I say the right things and act like I'm fine and you get this look ~ this smile filled with pride as if your happy that you've fixed me. You havent. You say im always busy and avoiding you. I'm not avoiding you. I have to be busy. Or else I'll crash and fall. I'm not playing the victim. I don't tell you im not ok. That's me fighting. don't act like you care when your just bored and I seem like a project.

Leanney-hayley

@Oliviaxluna I should have known...I didnt like her because she was mean to you but I wish she was still here giving us a hard time
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Oliviaxluna

My grandpa has sadly passed away this morning 
          Please keep him in your prayers
          May his soul rest in peace
          

burnt_gummy

@Oliviaxluna 
            I’m sorry for your loss..
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Oliviaxluna

@sellyzelly you've helped me a lot with when I found out and the initial shock. Thanks I freaking adore you 
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Oliviaxluna

@johnathan19henry I can't even talk to his immediate family. We start to tear up and end the call. I dont want to burden them in such a time. I just- I acnt believe his gone . I talked to him half an hour before he passed away
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Oliviaxluna

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          Look, black is beautiful, black is excellent
          Black is pain, black is joy, black is evident
          It's workin' twice as hard as the people you know you're better than
          'Cause you need to do double what they do so you can level them
          Black is so much deeper than just African-American
          Our heritage been severed, you never got to experiment
          With family trees, 'cause they teach you 'bout famine and greed
          And show you pictures of our fam on their knees
          Tell us we used to be barbaric, we had actual queens
          Black is watchin' child soldiers gettin' killed by other children
          Feelin' sick, like, "Oh shit, this could have happened to me"
          Your mummy watchin' tellin' stories 'bout your dad and your niece
          The blacker the berry the sweeter the juice
          A kid dies, the blacker the killer, the sweeter the news
          And if he's white you give him a chance, he's ill and confused
          If he's black he's probably armed, you see him and shoot
          
          Look, black is growin' up around the barbershop
          Mummy sayin', "Stay away from trouble, you’re in yard a lot"
          Studying for ages, appreciatin' the chance you got
          'Cause black is in your blood, and you ain't even got the heart to stop
          Black is steppin' in for your mother because your father's gone
          And standin' by your children when you haven't proven karma wrong
          Black is doin' all of the above then goin' corner shoppin'
          Tryna help a lady cross the road to have her walkin' off
          Black is growin' up around your family and makin' it
          Then being forced to leave the place you love because there's hate in it
          People say you fake the shit, never stayed to change the shit
          But black is bein' jealous, you'd be dead if you had stayed in it
          Black is strugglin' to find your history or trace the shit
          You don't know the truth about your race 'cause they erasin' it

Leanney-hayley

@Oliviaxluna that song Is everything
            Strongly agree with what it says
            Even though we are white and can be naive about the equality act being very effective. We shouldn't need an equality act for people to treat each other the same with respect. Racism which many black people face and have to tolerate should be stopped 
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Oliviaxluna

In the hospital once again

Oliviaxluna

@Villainous-Love I had a panick attack and ended up passing out and had a concussion  
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BriBeloved

If you don't mind me asking 
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