OllieForeverdot
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Man im sorry this is another vent
I don't know I still am disgusted by myself I feel so guilty for everything and I regret so much. And I feel bad for feeling bad because I don't even have a reason to?? I have a good relationship with my parents and we have money to get by and I have friends and a stable life so. Isn't it unfair that I feel this way? And telling myself that makes me feel worse and I don't know what to do? My friends all have it worse than me so I don't want to go talk to them about my problems and I don't feel like talking to my parents at all. I am so lost. I wish I could get a job but nowhere wants to hire me so I'm just sitting at home feeling bad about myself for no reason. Summer is going by so quick and I have nothing to do at all. No stupid dream show to prepare for because I screwed that up, no job because nowhere hired people my age anymore, no license because im an accident waiting to happen and I keep procrastinating, no plans for the future because I was set in theater of all fucking things and that's going nowhere so why try anymore no personality or cool interests or good talents of any sorts. I can't even get the attention span to learn the guitar and stupid simply guitar only gave me a free trial. I just wonder why im such a failure? Life just keeps kicking me down. Im really tired of it idk, I thought I was good at what I do but man. And who even gave me the right to be sad I see countless people going through much worse shit than I do every day and yet I dare to feel sucky every day too. What is wrong with me you guys im really wondering
yeonjunsstargirl
@OllieForeverdot it's ok to feel like this, we all do. It's not ur fault. Ur health and mental and ur situation in gen is very important to acknowledge. I think that talking to a close friend helps, ik it's helped me in the past but idk if it works for everyone. But u r not a failure my dear, I think it's ur mindset rn that's making u feel that way. I'm sure ur fantastic at everything u do and love. It's not unfair that u feel guilt for everything, it's perfectly normal to feel guilty about everything i think. This mindset and sadness washes over me, kind of how ur describing, multiple times. I don't want u to feel odd or disgust for yourself. Like I said before, I think ur a great person, and there is nothing that is abnormal about it, in my opinion. Sometimes else that might help is writing down what u might like about yourself everyday, even if it's very little atpit. Taking little mental breaks and trying to take care of urself might help aswell. I always want u to feel happy and comfortable w urself. Nothing u do is wrong.
rvenge_bucky
@OllieForeverdot It’s okay, I feel like this all the time actually. But whatever you’re going through matters a lot, and I don’t think you friends would mind if you needed them to listen to you for a bit. You should talk to them about all this, if they’re your friends then I’m sure they would sit and listen as you talk about it all, and help you through it. If not, I’m always here :)
