omg I haven't been on here in so long so life update also ⚠️trigger warning⚠️ I mention some stuff that can be triggering to most people. I get to meet my girlfriend of almost 2 years at a Niall concert. my braces hurt like a bitch but not nearly as bad as my expander cause it's cutting my tongue open. I went back to school after being homeschooled for 2 years, got severely bullied and had to file a complaint and get a no contact order on someone I thought was my friend for sexual harassment. my parents refuse to let me go back to homeschooling cause I need the "high school experience." I have to make a life changing decision at school that decides my whole future, luckily it's snowing so bad I haven't been at school in a week and I have time to think on it but for the most part I think I know what I'm doing. my BPD has gotten worse so that's always fun, plus the fact I'm autistic so it's like a constant battle. I haven't been on here cause I've been so busy and just so exhausted. my health has declined so fast my kidneys are giving out, my heart is weakening, and I'm in constant physical pain. the medication for that has made my sewerslide thoughts worse so I've been trying to get over all that, so my 2 bestfriends and my girlfriend don't have a dead bestfriend/girlfriend. it's been hard but I think it's getting better I have rough patches where I'll relapse but my bestfriends Abbie, Lilly, and my girlfriend have been helping a lot I can't thank them enough, but that was just a quick life update it's a lot.