Ophalcharrora

Hi, how are you? I know it's none of my business, but I'm curious if you're better about your problem!

Me when I am having a pretty bad mental health spout and stopped eating properly for like half a month but has began eating properly again but has been exhausted 24/7 since I got the flu a month ago followed by a killer ear infected which caused me to stop eating because I had no appetite FOLLOWED AGAIN by me and my mom having the worst argument in a year and her yelling that she hated us all (me and my oldest brother who is 2 years younger than me) and her taking away everything from me for having the family group chat muted while my brother needed toilet paper and she blamed it all on me so I fell into the depressive state I am in currently even though we aren’t fighting anymore—
          
          And I had the SAT this Wednesday. It sucked. 
          
          Yeah great past month and more lmao…
          
          My English teacher is not helping either. She is a fucking bitch who hates all of her students while pretending she doesn’t :) making my mental health go into the dumpster!

Oh heyyyy there!
          
          Not me watching Wonder Pets while writing my first actual fanfic in months rn!
          
          Yeah. Jesus Christ I went off the deep end. I just could not get any good ideas rolling around in this empty head of mine. And then… i n s p i r a t i o n. Well, I have two Genshin fanfics in the making. One is Fatui Kaeya centered, but it needs to be fleshed out more since it is a completely OG concept born from my empty af head. The second is a Genshin and HSR Crossover since I began playing HSR again and decided it would be Childe focused and it was inspired by this awesome af fanfic on AO3 called Parallel Coincidences by RandomEscapist_990. So many ideas in my head rn, including the entire prologue! The fanfic that inspired me has 116 chapters, just updated yesterday, updates every week currently, and has 180k words. Read that bitch in around 8 hours in 2 days. Great read I recommend it! While my story was inspired by this amazing read, i have a completely different approach I would like to take! So one day i may be posting a pretty consistent fanfic again!

So… uh… storiessss! Yeah…
          
          School has been hellish with the new law in place that basically bans the use of phones during the school day. My designated writing time of Fridays? Gone. I wrote during an extra free period on Fridays for the past two years and I CANT NOW—! I am also going between two schools now since my area has this special thing in place where you can do other classes if you have all the credits you need. So yeah, that has been super fun! I also have two therapists that I have been seeing. One has been weekly every single Friday for occupational therapy. This has been going on for almost 13 weeks at this point and is about to end! Then I got a normal therapist, yknow. That was every week, then every two weeks, then three… so one so one and currently its once every month! And tbh I have been super overwhelmed and yet so relaxed recently. So i have no literally NO motivation to write my usual angst n shit since THAT IS WHAT FUELED MY DESIRES! I love writing but im in such a drought right now! Especially since im being forced to write like an essay every week now. When I get home in like ‘nah i wanna unwind,’ and then when I want to write its when im in the middle of a FUCKING MATH OR WRITING LESSON or im HALF A-FUCKING-SLEEP!
          
          Im going to try and start writing again but my creativity is just NOT flowing rn.

My Dreamfall/Fallverse story is coming along pretty ICEly. Sorry, that was apart of some pretty COLD puns being written currently in the prologue! Haha! Anyway. A little TREAT of information if you will.
          
          Fallverse is in the Multiverse that USB takes place in! If y’all remember what USB stands for and what AU that is lol-! Just a little fun fact <3
          
          The OG FV Sans has the same sweater that USB Sans wears! A brown turtleneck! I did have some art up a bit ago of USB Sans (but his design has been changed as i did some ✨traditional✨ art recently) and if you saw that art, yknow what I mean!

After a LOT of deliberation, I have decided to RESTART DREAMFALL!!! Aka Two Sides to the Same Line or whatever i named it LMAO. That is right! I am hitting the RESET button for a second time to make a better fleshed out story. Since Undertale in nearly a DECADE old now (holy shit), and I have been in the fandom for the better half of a decade (which means the OG story was written almost 5 years ago) and I have advanced in my writing a TON since the first chapter was written, I decided to have a go at this story again, posting the first chapter on Undertale’s 10th anniversary!
          
          If everything goes to plan…. Hehehe
          
          This story will be worked on in the shadows, pre written chapters, the usual. I am going to have to have a long time to plan this story, so take the first chapter as a pilot if you will… when it comes out… =)
          
          See you all in September…
          
          Or who knows if I will come out with a little… side story if you will… before then?

I dont think I ever told yall I got diagnosed with Aspergers lmao—
          
          Im fucking a u t i s t i c HAHAHAHAH!
          
          Also I went to Disney. That was fun. Florida weather sucks tho.

I feel like my mom doesnt understand how good i am at deducing these slight changes in everyone behavior. Well, her and my youngest brother. My dad didnt seem out of the ordinary, only those two.

Some of yall may know that my birthday is the 19th of July. Well, I am 99% sure that my parents went on a 10 hours round trip to go and pick me up a used car that I wanted for my first ever car! It is a yellow vw beetle that has a lot of flower designs and is really cute. Last night my mom probably told my brother, as he was acting super weird after he came back out and was giggling non-stop, and when i asked my mom yesterday why her and my dad had to get 1.2k out of the bank she said it wasnt any of my business. And then when I tried to go out into the garage to go get my dad to help me with some technical stuff, my mom shooed me back inside and side tracked me. So, like, 99.99999% sure its a surprise, a surprise that i already figured out in less then 24 hours. But the nail in the coffin was when i looked at find my Iphone and saw my parents going over 165 miles out of town. 5 hours away to where that car was being sold.
          
          Im not insane!

Yall know of the fluffy magic worms? Hehehehe… every time i saw my grandpa he would give me one. They would eventually fall apart or be lost, but it never stopped me!
          
          F l u f f y