Originalsparkstar

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By the way all of this is going to be speech to text because I don't have the cognitive faculties to sit down and write all this at the moment due to everything that's going on. So it's going to seem a bit Raw, and unedited because it is, it's raw emotion just throwing on the paper/screen.
          	
          	I thought it was finally time for me to explain why I haven't been updating any stories so far. I've been actually trying to update around 20 to 30 I think, but unfortunately I've been either sick, or just dealing with IRL stuff. Plus the holidays, you know Christmas and whatnot, but that's more of a at the moment thing than in general. I actually suffer from major near crippling depression, as well as other health issues. And on top of that I have to deal with other interpersonal/family issues. Like my sister's kid was legally kidnapped illegally, what do I mean by that? The kid's biological father, who refused to sign the birth certificate. Suddenly decided after finding out he could get a tax write off for having kids. To fuck up the legal system, by claiming that my sister is abusive, and that the half brother was trying to unalive the kid, and then paying off with the help of his current ex-girlfriend, people from the DCFS, as well as filing multiple anonymous claims through Child Protective Services. In order to try and get legal custody of a child that by the state law they were in he had no legal right to because he never signed the birth certificate and wavered his rights as a father. According to the state law that they were in legally speaking he didn't have the right to hold the child in his custody at all. The kids should have went to the closest legal relative, whether it be a grandma, aunt, uncle or otherwise.

Originalsparkstar

@Firehedgehog Getting it all in the open helps a bit but not really.
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Firehedgehog

@Originalsparkstar you doing any better hon?
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Originalsparkstar

this message may be offensive 
Feel like I'm rambling at this point so I guess I'll just in this rant here. And I hope you understand why it's taken so long for me to update anything, because it is not been lack of trying. I assure you that, it has been lack of fucking sanity at this point, because of all the crazy shit I've had to deal with. I can't sit down and focus on writing something when I'm constantly being bombarded by stupidity and drug-filled ret@rd@tion. Like it got you a very dark dark point where stuff almost happened that could never be undone. But luckily, not only is the man of drug addict and an idiot, what is also a big fucking hypocritical coward. So any pushback and he backs down and runs off like a bitch.
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Originalsparkstar

this message may be offensive 
By the way all of this is going to be speech to text because I don't have the cognitive faculties to sit down and write all this at the moment due to everything that's going on. So it's going to seem a bit Raw, and unedited because it is, it's raw emotion just throwing on the paper/screen.
          
          I thought it was finally time for me to explain why I haven't been updating any stories so far. I've been actually trying to update around 20 to 30 I think, but unfortunately I've been either sick, or just dealing with IRL stuff. Plus the holidays, you know Christmas and whatnot, but that's more of a at the moment thing than in general. I actually suffer from major near crippling depression, as well as other health issues. And on top of that I have to deal with other interpersonal/family issues. Like my sister's kid was legally kidnapped illegally, what do I mean by that? The kid's biological father, who refused to sign the birth certificate. Suddenly decided after finding out he could get a tax write off for having kids. To fuck up the legal system, by claiming that my sister is abusive, and that the half brother was trying to unalive the kid, and then paying off with the help of his current ex-girlfriend, people from the DCFS, as well as filing multiple anonymous claims through Child Protective Services. In order to try and get legal custody of a child that by the state law they were in he had no legal right to because he never signed the birth certificate and wavered his rights as a father. According to the state law that they were in legally speaking he didn't have the right to hold the child in his custody at all. The kids should have went to the closest legal relative, whether it be a grandma, aunt, uncle or otherwise.

Originalsparkstar

@Firehedgehog Getting it all in the open helps a bit but not really.
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Firehedgehog

@Originalsparkstar you doing any better hon?
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Originalsparkstar

this message may be offensive 
Feel like I'm rambling at this point so I guess I'll just in this rant here. And I hope you understand why it's taken so long for me to update anything, because it is not been lack of trying. I assure you that, it has been lack of fucking sanity at this point, because of all the crazy shit I've had to deal with. I can't sit down and focus on writing something when I'm constantly being bombarded by stupidity and drug-filled ret@rd@tion. Like it got you a very dark dark point where stuff almost happened that could never be undone. But luckily, not only is the man of drug addict and an idiot, what is also a big fucking hypocritical coward. So any pushback and he backs down and runs off like a bitch.
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Sara40724432

Hello my name is Rachel and I see all your story. 
          Sorry if i bother you um you can do reborn as furry fox in another world with system and powers ? 
          If you want i can tell you what powers of the main character will have and also name the name of the main character.

Originalsparkstar

I know, I know, I need to update a lot of stories. I'm working on it, it's just hard to get going on them due to a LOT of factors so sorry for that. But hopefully I get a inspiration explosion and can hit it hard like I was doing before with 2-8 chapters a day for a month. Or not I don't know...

Gacha917

An idea that might help you with organizing stories you wanna do in the future and stories you might want to do now is to use the notes app or any other where you can write and start making ideas or writing for some of the stories you have to complete and make the chapters bit by bit you don’t have to finish them in one go just write a little of one story and a little of the other and you’ll be able to finish 1 chapter at some point and also if you come up with a new story while doing this you can use this to organize yourself 
          Another idea you could try when making new stories have the first 3 to 5 chapters written out and once you have them upload them 1 by 1 weekly so you can pace yourself and possibly come up with more

Originalsparkstar

@Gacha917 tried that before didn't help, but thank you for the advice
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Originalsparkstar

I'm in a weird position right now, a lot of things are kind of happening in real life and online, and it's kind of got me stuck on how to continue a lot of my stories. I have plenty of ideas for new stories, and I know how to start those stories and what I want to do at the beginning of them. But I have no idea how to continue any of the stories I have already started. So to everyone asking me to update this story or that story I can't. At the moment I believe I have 20 to 30 stories I'm trying to update. And with a book log of 90+ stories that are technically in continuation, being stuck on 30 is really slowing me down. Because there are also a few drafts I have that I want to do that I am also stuck on because of stress, IRL issues, and other things. Someone said I should probably put a few books on hiatus and for all intensive purposes. A lot of them technically are, because I can't get to them because I have a list. 
          
          Another issue is my actual physical health, due to the amount of stress I have been having. My physical well-being actually plummeted a lot, I've had fevers, digestive issues, chest pain, migraines, and other stress related physical issues.

Yun_5868

@ Originalsparkstar  I hope and you recover
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Originalsparkstar

I know this has been a large and unusual message or post or whatever, but I feel like it's one that needed to be said. I will try to update the stories I've been working on for the last however long it has been at this point. And I'll try to update the ones I really want to update. But a lot of them will be on hiatus, and some of them may be handed off to the writers. With the caveat of I could pick them up and write them again if I want. Both versions will be canon to the story. It'll just be an alternate universe or timeline of said story. If you want to go through the large list of stories and I guess pick one. Message me which one you'd like to try, I believe for now that is all, thank you for your understanding and patience. Hopefully I will get better soon so I can go back to writing cuz, I really do enjoy it. And it almost hurts in a way that I haven't been able to, throw at this point I believe I am rambling so I will just say thank you for your understanding, your patience, and your kindness. And I hope you enjoy any new stories I put out, because I feel like there's going to be more new ones than there are updates unfortunately. And Thank you for reading.
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Originalsparkstar

Oh and I know it's 100% pure stress that's not a debatable speculation. It's just fact, but along with the physical stress related issues I've also been having mental stress related issues. Including insomnia, depression, mental and emotional exhaustion, anxiety, emotional breakdowns, mental breakdowns, suicidal Thoughts, lethargy. For those of you who don't know what that last one is, lethargy is the lack of enthusiasm energy and motivation. I've been meaning to take a break, but when the issue isn't something you can just take a break from. You really can't take a break from it, I won't get into my personal life, because that would probably be weird. But it's really not something you can just take a break from, even though I wish it was. I used to write stories as a way to escape my issues but now the stories have become part of my issues. Because I've written so many, that I have an extensive and extreme backlog. 90 to 97 stories, that's how many I need to update, not including drafts. I feel like some of the older stories that I can't really get to. And by older I mean three to four years since the last update, I should probably hand off to someone else. If there is any story that is around 3 to 4 years out of date that you feel needs an update. Message me the title, and I guess I'll let you work on it. Though I reserved the right to continue it as a alternative version of that particular story if I'm able to continue later.
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Originalsparkstar

Thinking about selling some of my plots, I've to many to write on my own. Think anyone would want them? Also not sure on prices, may give some away in exchange for credit in the story.

Originalsparkstar

@Firehedgehog lol yup
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Originalsparkstar

@Lavender_moonlighte lol it's cool
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Lavender_moonlight1

@Originalsparkstar can't afford that with my asian money
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Originalsparkstar

Should I make a new story while I'm waiting for the inspiration to continue some of my other books?

Haru_Writes_0

@Originalsparkstar y e s
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AngelGodRose

@Originalsparkstar If you want to, plus it’d be your 100th work, that’s pretty cool :P
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Originalsparkstar

Was thinking of starting a new story, maybe that would help me think of what to do with some of the other's but maybe not.
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