Hi Oscar,
As promised, my comments on what you wrote.
My first thought was to correct your English, but as I was reading through them all I realised that it will take away the meaning and the feelings of that moment when you wrote them.
My advice is: don't correct them and don't stop writing either. By practice one can only get better. These thoughts are also an insight of you. The amazing part is that I "saw" parts of myself as well. Carry on, don't stop. This is not only a way to say thing that's hard to share, but also a way of venting when no-one will listen/understand.
Thank you for allowing me to read them.
I cannot wait to see more.
Take care....