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So.. I'm gonna vent.. uh.. so i just found out my best friend Breeanna died of a blood clot monday morning.. I don't know why i wasn't told until 12:38 am but ya know.. I just wish i would have told her how i felt about her.. and no, she is just my best friend.. She was such a beautiful person.. She was the one who greeted me and let me sit with her at lunch when i first moved to Texas...FOR FUCKS SAKE SHE WAS ONLY 15!
SHE HAD A WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF HER!!!!WHY NOW, HUH???I JUST WANNA SCREAM!!!!WHY GOD!???? WHY?!??!?!?!SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND DAMN IT!! What am I going to do without you,huh..? ffs i'm shaking..I just want her back..i wanna hold her...i wanna see her pretty smile..and watch those dorky music.ly's you made at lunch.. i wanna have sleepovers where we can gosip and giggle all night...we would watch memes and vines all night..I wanna see her sparkly smile and beautiful hair that i would braid and it would look like shit but we would just laugh at it till we pee ourselves.. Fuck..
I wrote something for her..
To Breeanna: I just want to say that I love you like you were my own family Bree... You are my best friend. My heart... how am I gonna live without my heart huh..? Enough about me.. How are you honey? You Smiling up there? Dancing with the stars and seeing the beautiful Universe..? You seem like to person to just dance with those twinkling,jolly, balls of hot air.. You are the only true star. The most brightly shining ball of hot air.. haha. I can already hear it.. you calling me a nerd with those beautiful lips of yours.. I always admired your beauty ya know.. You have the most beautiful red hair.. I got jealous sometimes because you are so gorgeous. haha. I hope you love it up there. I hope you have everything you ever wished for Bree. I love you.. So much Sis.. Sleep well, yeah?
Love,Jessica.