it's so frustrating having a crush because he'll never know just how much i like him, he knows i like him but does he know i have a whole document about him with 16000 words of me just talkign abt him? no he doesnt and he never will and he will never understand how i've genuinely been praying for his safety, for his health, for his happiness from afar for years. he will never understand how much i truly care for him and its so frustratingggggg