@P1zzagutz
i tried buldak for the first time, i personally dont get the hype; tasted like spicy cardboard
saw these people buying it yesterday and a whole ass package is like 8$ (idk how much that is in the uk sorryy) and im like GYATT DAYUMMM
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I feel like a 14 year olds vent oc with every disorder in the book
thank you so much ♡ i hope things get better (they will, trust me)
i was once depressed for like 4 months straight and it was absolute hell, i didn't think i'd make it out alive....and i did, if i can do it, you can <3 there is always light at the end of the tunnel ♡♡♡
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Today was a good day
I won't get my hopes up but it was nice to not be loosing it 24/7 for a day
Went to Weymouth with my boyfriend
I bought an lps house for £15 (Which is actually cheap given it's online prices)
My boyfriend got a furby who was a limited edition for £50, we named him Mud and he is now our adopted son (Despite being 27 and older than both of us)
Met 2 people in a boba tea shop, they are friends now and they dress alt along with having our interests
The Two Time plush my boyfriend ordered for me arrived
a handful of other things but those are my favourites
tell me why as soon as i try to get better i get FUCKING FIRED FROM MY JOB???? OVER SOMETHING THEY COULD HAVE TALKED TO ME ABOUT???
fuck everything at this point im gonna finish writing my notes
@riff_luvs_floyd personal ones, i cant go into detail or wattpad will flag me and my acc is lowkey at risk
Shitty guest 1337 theme because I just got back into this account
Small life update that I'm gonna need to try and get meds, relying on my friend to get them for me. I feel slightly better but still down, I however want to keep trying to get better,
i hope things get better for you ♡ you're such a sweet person who doesnt deserve any shit. please take care of yourself <3
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"oh wait raymins back"
yes and im here to announce that im at my lowest and may not be here for a long time
at the start of this year ive been nothing but miserable
ive stopped drawing cause i cant draw anything good anymore
my animation skills have entirely gone
my writing isnt even good anymore
i cant even listen to music and imagine things anymore
my head hurts when i try to do anything
im loosing myself
i feel like im mentally dying
without art i am nothing.
"maybe art just isnt your thing"
something i was told by my boyfriend after showing him a drawing i did
i couldnt even get angry anymore, he was right
ever since i was bullied into a massive art block in mid 2025 which made me rebrand, my art has done nothing but get worse because of the constant panic that it would end up looking like my old art, art i never swore to make again
i cant even draw basic anatomy anymore, art is ruined im ruined
and without art i do not want to be here, ill have no job and end up dead
thank you to everyone who was here from the start or along the way, i love you
♡ ; ; fnf/bnb nostalgia has been going ballistic recently
and i dont mean like "aw i miss those times :(" i mean i've been relistening to the ost and looking through my old art and unpublished books recently :sobs:
"Just say you weren't invited"
Ok 13 year old edgelord how about you go find a man just like Jeff and see how that plays out
My little on command fixation came back, hooray
@P1zzagutz HIHI. ugghuhuhuhuj if your still into ONC i'm remaing it?? But my version, with ocs, more lore and stuff like that! idk i wanna ask if i ca share allat with you
logging into this acc through my pc hol on
