it's 3 AM again and i have so much on my mind so please, hear me out. i can't say i hate 2017 since so many good things have happened this year. ninth grade was definitely one of the best school years ever for me. i was ever so slowly but surely overcoming my problems. my relationship with my family finally stabilized and we were on good terms. i reconnected and visited my family during the summer. i've made so many new friends that i absolutely love and adore with all my heart. but school started again, which i was fine with at first, but it soon became too much. on top of that, so much family problems arose again. my friends are still my friends, but they're so distant now. i've lost so many people. but i've also gained many. talented people have left this world, but also new ones came. yes, i fell back into depression. but it's slowly getting better again. so i can't really say i hate 2017, but i also can't say it was my favourite. all i can say full heartedly was that 2017 was definitely a roller coaster. it was a long journey that went by way too fast, but also not fast enough. 2017 was definitely a huge stepping stone into shaping me up into who i am and who i want to be. but 2017 is coming to an end, which i can't even comprehend yet, and 2018 is literally hours away. so for my last message for 2017, i'd like to say thank you. i love you. i hope 2018 treats you right. happy new year's eve. happy new year. you made it.
