I dislike being on the aromatic and asexual spectrum sometimes. I don't hate it. But it makes me feel bad sometimes. I've had a couple people come up to me and be like "hey, my friend likes you" and wait for me to say something. I always feel uncomfortable because they really do look like a nice person, but I can't say yes to them. At the same time I have to consider the fact that it could be a joke. And I have this friend who's in my homeroom who knows I'm on the spectrum. At the beginning of the year, she made jokes about me being my girlfriend and wanted to hold my hand during dismissal. I didn't know if she was joking at the time that made me feel anxious i didn't wanna lead her on but i didn't wanna hurt her feelings. But i didn't ask cause it would been extremely awkward,so I waited til someone else asked. Turns out she was joking. Fastfoward a few months, she asks for hugs and wants to hold my hand sometimes. She also asked for my help on doing things like picking out baby names, which I find weird cause we're not graduating any time soon, and likes to tell me about all her relationship drama and who she's hooked up/talked with (which is tiring cause it's rarely the same person twice). I listen and help sometimes, but sometimes I don't feel up to it/want to or need to do work. I try to say no and sometimes she says "oh it's prolly cause you're asexual ya know". Like I just don't feel like it. I try to tell her this but it just happens again. I don't think it's intentional but it makes me feel bad. Some other things she's said to me were "don't get mad at me for saying this but I think you need a boyfriend. it might help you get that stick out your as*" (got mad at her. She apologized) and "you two would make a cute couple" (she was referring to me and someone who I think of as a brother). I know I'm repeating myself, but I feel uncomfortable when she says this, cause even if I did get into a relationship with someone it wouldn't be fair to the other person.
