PRADNYATAETAE

I wish I could have hard copies of all my fav books. Everyday I'm afraid if the gets deleted or author deletes it. These books are my happy place. Taekook is my happy place. I don't care if they are a thing in real or not. I just love reading, imagining their faces throughout the stories. 2 of my most fav books were deleted by authors. I wish there would have any way to save them.

bookwarm1016

Hi pretty stranger, i knwo you are much more older than me but i feel yuo like a friend so i just thought to let out my thoughts cuz now it's getting too much for me. Sorry if i am disturbing. I just feel like i am changing, my personality is changing and i am not who I was before whether for the good or bad. I feel like all people don't like me too. it makes me doubt about my self. last yesr me and my family ( parent& brother ) moved to nz and when i was in gr 11, now i am in yr 12 and everything is new & changing. I made friends ( or i thought they were friends) and realized they were just with me because i am good at studies ( i am not that good but i wroked hard cuz my parents did so much for me so i need to make them proud) and now i am like a ghost to them, i am the second option. My father is stressed too bcs of his masters and i feel like i am at fault for it as they decided to come here for my better future. I don't feel much things, sometimes i laugh and become sooo happy like a kid and in the other moment when im alone I feel hopeless and numb. i just do my studies well and everyone says that i am very strong and intelligent but I feel so weak cuz i'm just good at not showing

PRADNYATAETAE

And you are strong if you think you don't show that you are weak. I know matters must have solved now but just never overthink. Get a good sleep and eat well.
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PRADNYATAETAE

@bookwarm1016 sorry dear, I actually read the notifications once I finish the fiction.
            But what if I say that I totally understand your situation and been through it. Though I never associate where I'm not important. I always put myself first from childhood. Even in my friends group if I ever feel uninvited, I take a step back from them. 
            Sometimes it feels lonely in crowd, Sometimes we can't share some things with best friends but want to share with strangers and let it out. Let me tell you something I wasn't strong either. 2yrs ago I was just like you. I even had bad thoughts. So I didn't have any other option but to be strong. Time heals everything. 'this is just a phase' though I hate this sentence but it's true. For now work on yourself. I used be very depressed as I didn't have a job and used to be very negative towards life. I don't know what changed but one day when I woke up, I started to live the moment, sad-happy whatever it is. Some things are bound to not happen and when you accept this, you'll start looking at life in different way. Don't put your foot on the ground and don't fly to high. Just enjoy in the mid air. Life is too small dear. If life is making fun of you by not letting you live happily, then you also don't give a F to life and keep doing whatever you are doing enthusiastically. I also have a lot to talk hehe. Also, if you start thinking about your worries, shut your brain immediately and think about some other things. I know it's not a good method but I do it and one day my brain just forget for what I was worried.
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bookwarm1016

Now when someone i love ignore me even for a single second or when someone tryies to become friends I am scared
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bookwarm1016

Hi it's me the stranger, ( I felt bad for using that comment section ) i just wanted to tell you i saw your comment and your happiness is the biggest thank you that you could ever give me. So be happy. And yh we are humans and we always need someone to rely on so as a part of our bora family we can help each other. You are my friend now so no escape oki? I'm also dealing with some stress these days and it's bearable for now if i need someone to talk to i hope i can talk to you.

PRADNYATAETAE

@bookwarm1016 definitely. We can talk. Yup we are friends now. Sorry i was so into other book that I forgot to open notifications. Don't be stressed much. The world is very beautiful. For now, I'll send you some virtual hugs
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PRADNYATAETAE

I wish I could have hard copies of all my fav books. Everyday I'm afraid if the gets deleted or author deletes it. These books are my happy place. Taekook is my happy place. I don't care if they are a thing in real or not. I just love reading, imagining their faces throughout the stories. 2 of my most fav books were deleted by authors. I wish there would have any way to save them.

PRADNYATAETAE

I didn't know everyone can see my reading lists  I would suggest everyone to read my 'Favs' and 'reread' lists.
          Above all those stories I had my fav story which called Darkness by Omegally. But the author deleted the story to write new plots. I and people like me requested her to upload that story again, she responded with yes. I hope I'll get to read that story again in my lifetime. That was the best story.
          And the other one was 'The Nerds'. Author uploaded that story on other app. I can't seem to remember authors name. If anyone knows please let me know. I wish to read that story again. All those were taekook.