I look at where the Tokyo Ghoul fanfiction is, and I read it time and time again.
I am not a good writer, and the reads and likes on that fanfiction stems from the fact of the title that is as famous as Tokyo Ghoul and nothing else.
I love works of literature, I’ve read novels and books for a long and huge part of my life and still do. I’ve started reading mangas as they are works of literature that take shape and form in drawings, and around the time Tokyo Ghoul was ending, I picked up its manga from start to finish and realized the genius of its author, the dedication and work it takes to create such work.
The story between Touka and Kaneki in that manga played out more beautifully than any fanfiction I’ve read, and since my fanfiction revolves around that relationship, it got me to feel like I was doing a disservice to play out these two characters in what I would like to see when the original author of these characters had such a different idea and execution.
Thus is the reason why I find it hard to write anything, and with the latest chapter I realized how much I was somewhat trying to articulate a similar story to that of the original author, which is something I don’t wish to do. All though I’ve tried to implement my own touch into the story, I cannot find it in me to play out that relationship in a way that is meaningful to me, let alone to others.
I don’t know what will happen to the fanfiction. I’ve only recently started working on the next chapter and this is something I’ve been thinking about as I was writing it. It doesn’t mean I will end the story where it is, but I am also lost on how I can make it special, or add my own take to it.
I just felt like I needed to share my thoughts. I apologize for not updating my story for those who waited, and I thank you all for your support and I appreciate all of you who still stuck around with this story.