i actually just love fantasy because of how much this world sucks. this world isn't magical, interesting, or worth staring at for too long. it's just... flat, boring, heavy. but when i let my brain wander? when i just drift off into my own head? suddenly everything's different. i can be anyone, go anywhere, do shit i'd never touch in real life. no rules, no stupid people, no pressure.

sometimes i catch myself grinning at nothing cuz i'm somewhere else entirely, somewhere better, cooler, or even just... weirder. and yeah, it's kinda lame to admit i'd rather live in my daydreams than in the real world half the time, but whatever. real life sucks, and my brain's got a vip section that never closes.

sometimes i make these little scenarios in my head that i know would never happen likeme laughing at a dumb joke no one else gets, or walking through a city that bends and shifts like it's alive, or talking to someone who really gets me without even saying it out loud. it's stupidly comforting. it's like a secret world i can visit any time, and no one can tell me i'm wrong for it.

and honestly, i think that's why i keep doing it. even when life's loud or shitty or overwhelming, i can just slip away for a few minutes and feel... bigger. like i matter more than the boring grind, like the rules don't apply. maybe it's childish. maybe it's lonely. maybe people would call it weird. but i don't care. my daydreams are safe, they're mine, and they're the only magic i've ever really needed.