PanchiVerma

I lost someone very precious today.
          	
          	I’m leaving for now. The guilt is eating me alive. Everything feels like it’s my fault, and when I look at my stories and this account, I feel angry at myself. I keep thinking I should have spent more time with him..more than I did writing here.
          	
          	The world always asked things from me, but he never did. He loved me more than I loved him.
          	
          	He was so selfless. I don’t know how I’m going to forgive myself. I raised him with so much love, but last night when he was at my door, crying for me, I was busy writing. 
          	
          	And today he left. He died in my arms.
          	
          	I should have gone to him. I should have noticed the signs. I should have loved him more while I still had time.
          	
          	Right now, writing only makes me hate myself because I chose it over him so many times. I didn’t understand that our time wasn’t endless.
          	
          	I don’t know when I’ll return, or what will happen next. I don’t know what will happen to the stories I started here. All I can see right now is my selfishness and my baby, who will never come back no matter how much I cry.
          	
          	I’m going offline for now and unpublishing my work.
          	
          	I’m sorry. 
          	
          	If anyone wants to unfollow and leave or curse me, they can, I understand.
          	
          	I’m truly sorry.

Sakura_Skyfall

@PanchiVerma  Dear Panchi, 
          	  I am so sorry for your loss. I realize how hard this must be for you and the emotions you are wracked with. 
          	  Please take your time. Whether you want to write now or later, or never again, is a decision for you to make. 
          	  As for for leaving or unfollowing you, how can we ever leave the person who created such painfully beautiful worlds in which we lost ourselves, in which we forgot about all our pain and sadness and took on the ones of your characters like they are our own. 
          	  You are a master writer, a creator who not only write stories but create worlds of your own, worlds which we readers eagerly look forward to enter, devour and forget the rest of the world. 
          	  Please take care. And know that if you ever feel ready, you will find us all, waiting here for you, with our arms and our hearts wide open. 
          	  With lots of love and warmth❤✨, 
          	  Shruthi
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MoonLive2

@PanchiVerma hello! My deepest condolences to you.... I agree with the heartfelt words of @sumitraranjan & @lish0609 ...... No need to feel sorry for us & we readers understand your feelings....I hope and wish for your well being! Please take care of yourself.
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lish0609

@PanchiVerma 
          	  Thank you forall the efforts you have put into your stories..We really enjoyed them,.They will remain one of the best stories i have ever read and you one of the best author i have come across...
          	  I am sorry for your loss...May Sri Sri  RadhaMadhav  always be with you..You are right abt ur decision ..No need to apologize..You should choose urself and ur mental peace overany other thing..Take care and be safe..
          	  And Thank you once again..
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PanchiVerma

I lost someone very precious today.
          
          I’m leaving for now. The guilt is eating me alive. Everything feels like it’s my fault, and when I look at my stories and this account, I feel angry at myself. I keep thinking I should have spent more time with him..more than I did writing here.
          
          The world always asked things from me, but he never did. He loved me more than I loved him.
          
          He was so selfless. I don’t know how I’m going to forgive myself. I raised him with so much love, but last night when he was at my door, crying for me, I was busy writing. 
          
          And today he left. He died in my arms.
          
          I should have gone to him. I should have noticed the signs. I should have loved him more while I still had time.
          
          Right now, writing only makes me hate myself because I chose it over him so many times. I didn’t understand that our time wasn’t endless.
          
          I don’t know when I’ll return, or what will happen next. I don’t know what will happen to the stories I started here. All I can see right now is my selfishness and my baby, who will never come back no matter how much I cry.
          
          I’m going offline for now and unpublishing my work.
          
          I’m sorry. 
          
          If anyone wants to unfollow and leave or curse me, they can, I understand.
          
          I’m truly sorry.

Sakura_Skyfall

@PanchiVerma  Dear Panchi, 
            I am so sorry for your loss. I realize how hard this must be for you and the emotions you are wracked with. 
            Please take your time. Whether you want to write now or later, or never again, is a decision for you to make. 
            As for for leaving or unfollowing you, how can we ever leave the person who created such painfully beautiful worlds in which we lost ourselves, in which we forgot about all our pain and sadness and took on the ones of your characters like they are our own. 
            You are a master writer, a creator who not only write stories but create worlds of your own, worlds which we readers eagerly look forward to enter, devour and forget the rest of the world. 
            Please take care. And know that if you ever feel ready, you will find us all, waiting here for you, with our arms and our hearts wide open. 
            With lots of love and warmth❤✨, 
            Shruthi
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MoonLive2

@PanchiVerma hello! My deepest condolences to you.... I agree with the heartfelt words of @sumitraranjan & @lish0609 ...... No need to feel sorry for us & we readers understand your feelings....I hope and wish for your well being! Please take care of yourself.
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lish0609

@PanchiVerma 
            Thank you forall the efforts you have put into your stories..We really enjoyed them,.They will remain one of the best stories i have ever read and you one of the best author i have come across...
            I am sorry for your loss...May Sri Sri  RadhaMadhav  always be with you..You are right abt ur decision ..No need to apologize..You should choose urself and ur mental peace overany other thing..Take care and be safe..
            And Thank you once again..
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sr_hsxrk

@PanchiVerma Hey, hope you're doing good. Im you are trying to balance both do them and are trying to release new chapters. 
          But please update "desire" cuz it's been way too long now and I'm literally holding on to that. 
          That's one of the few things making the day go by and it's been so long without it. Hope you're alright and everything is fine at your end.
          
          PS: it's a req, Try updating it frequently or let us know the calendar so we understand things at your end too ;)

PanchiVerma

@sr_hsxrk Hello! First of all, I'm so sorry for the delay. The college work really takes a lot of time. I'm half-done with the next chapter, will try to update tonight/tomorrow. 
            
            And also, I'm trying to bring the updates back on track, like once in 7-10 days if possible. Hopefully I'll be able to do that soon. Thank you for your time. take care ❤️
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