Pansexual_Trash_Rat

lab assistant>lab professor✨✨
          	he’s just funnier lol

Pansexual_Trash_Rat

I LOVE MY AUNTIE SO MUCH OMGGGGG
          she’s the vice principle at my younger sisters’ school and was able to land me a job as a volunteer tutor.
          she basically said that with this position, i don’t have to go through the hassle of signing in every single time i visit AND i’d get to help other students with their work. PLUS, i can put it on my resume and she said she’d write me letters of recommendation when needed.
          she’s honestly the best person ever✨✨

Pansexual_Trash_Rat

AND SHE SAID THAT I GET TO CHOOSE MY HOURS SO THEY FIT AROUND MY SCHOOL AND WORK SCHEDULE <33333
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Pansexual_Trash_Rat

love and hate how all of my profs have completely diff teaching styles.
          my math prof is very articulate and explains everything to everyone in a way they can understand individually, he’s truly an amazing prof.
          my chem prof, istg the entire class agrees w this too, has severe undiagnosed adhd so he’s all over the place no matter what we’re doing but he’s extremely smart. his only downfall? he assumes we’re all on the same level (PSSSTTTT we’re not lol).
          my speech prof is pretty chill and very lighthearted. talking to her is pretty easy usually and she’ll give you thorough feedback on everything and give you pointers for the next time. although, she does have a tendency to give us a specific word count that doesn’t match very well with the required time limit (usually either too many words for the maximum time limit or not enough words for the minimum time limit lol).
          my bio prof……… she kinda gets on my nerves. it’s an online class but she expects us to go out every week and buy over $100 worth of stuff just to use it one time for the week’s experiment… like no ma’am i will not, thank you.
          and my study skills contacts are all amazing. they have 5-6 diff ppl that help w ANYTHING you need. love them lmao

Pansexual_Trash_Rat

experienced sleep paralysis last night for the first time in months and holy SHITE i forgot how absolutely terrifying it is.
          i couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe, i was freezing cold and hot at the same time. i couldn’t open my eyes for the longest time and when i finally did all i could see were little shadows moving around in the corners of my vision.
          at one point i could clearly make out what looked like my biological dad standing in the corner of my room by my bed.
          i was so freaked out and tried to call out for literally anyone but my mouth wouldn’t move and no sounds would come out.
          it felt like it went on forever and i woke up this morning even more exhausted than when i went to bed.
          i told my counselor and she told me that if it continues on and gets more frequent then i should start seeing a therapist or psychiatrist again. she thinks that the recent events in my life have triggered my fight or flight senses and even in sleep i’m still so tense and on guard that my mind is beginning to use it against me.
          i do but don’t understand how it correlates to me having sleep paralysis and i want to talk to someone who knows more about it but i also feel like i have enough going on as it is right now that i don’t want or need ANOTHER appointment in my schedule yk