ParisAusten

Okay I feel like someone's Grammy trying to figure out how to use Wattpad again

ParisAusten

Hey guys I know it's been a while since I've been on here. I plan on sticking around a lot longer this time. I'll try not to flake on y'all any time soon, but I can guarantee that I can, since I'm doing really well in school and have to study for my upcoming SAT/ACT tests, mentor freshman, extracurricular activities, community services hours, blah blah blah. But I'll be back to fix my cringe writing let's just hope I don't drop dead from embarrassment! Thanks for reading this rant if you did!

ParisAusten

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Just on here to rant but I don't even know what I'm doing on this app anymore I honestly might just delete it cause I don't even use it I have almost 100 unpublished chapters atleast 30 of them are actually proof read and are ready to be published but I don't even feel like publishing then cause I just hate every single thing I write especially if it's old cause my writing has improved so much and I just hate that in wasting my time with this and my life just crazy asf rn and I don't even know anymore
          
          And I've been trying my best to post stuff to maybe have people interested in my writing but every time I try writing I end up deleting it cause I hate it! I have a 10k word chapter waiting to be published but I don't want to. Every time I think im ready to release a new chapters I get embarrassed by my own writing!
          
          And part of all of this is just cause my life is a mess. I think I mentioned this on an old post that a girl I like liked me back but this summer/end of the school I was spending more time with my other friendgroup and I was going through a lot of shit and when I went back to school we had first period together and she was so upset about how I distant myself from her and how I didn't say anything to her but what was I supposed to say? "Hey I know we told eachother we liked eachother and then proceeded to never make a move on eachother and then I distant myself away from you sorry hope you still like me" 
          
          I really can't fucking so shit right