Delilah

I LOVE VOLLEYBALL! WE WON OUR 5TH GAME IN A ROW IN TWO MATCHES! AYY. WE HAD AT LEAST TEN PEOPLE FROM OUR SCHOOL GO TO THE GAME AND SUPPORT OUR TEAMS. AT THE END OF EACH GAMES WE ALL BROKE IT DOWN AND IT WAS GREAT. AFTER THE B GAME WE BROKE IT DOWN AND I WAS RIGHT NEXT TO CAMRYN WHILE WE WERE CIRCLED UP AND I HAD TO PUT MY ARM AROUND HIM BUT I LIKED IT HALP.

about the earlier announcement, i guess i ought to explain. my grade had a volleyball game about 4 hours ago and Jaecob, Camryn, Maddox and Maddox's girlfriend were there. Jaecob went to the concession stands and got 3 pixie sticks. me and Alyssa, being the idiots we are, we got his attention, pointed at the powder and told him not to do drugs. he got one more about 20 minutes later and before he could buy it, we told him the same thing. he got the other one, then turnED AND SMILED AT US. that was during the A game. right before the B game, they started to walk out of the gym, and i asked them if they were leaving. Jaecob, being the only one that responded to me, widened his eyes and shook his head frantically. you know what, who needs someone who wont notice you when you have Jaecob, the adorable bean?

To all of my friends,
          JAECOB IS HAWT. DON'T ASK. HE'S FUCKING ADORABLE AND I JUST ACK I'M NOT OKAY HALP. 

ack. i've been getting really touchy-feely with my friends, much more affectionate towards people i usually dont like talking to or being around. oof. help please. im changing and i dont like it.

last year, i liked this boy named camryn, and when i say liked, i mean really liked. i never stopped talking about him, and it got really bad to the point where i thought i loved him. over the summer, i didnt see him once and i told myself, 'you dont like him anymore, jay, it was a one time thing.' and it had worked, until like a week ago. 
          i hate myself so much. 
          i like him again.

so, once upon a time i had a boyfriend.  he did drugs and i didn't know bc he ignored me for almost all of our relationship. well, he went to jail, right? now about 2 years later, he got out of jail. id be lying if i said i wasnt scared

On the first page of our story
          The future seemed so bright
          Then this thing turned out so evil
          I don’t know why I’m still surprised
          Even angels have their wicked schemes
          And you take that to new extremes
          But you’ll always be my hero
          Even though you’ve lost your mind
          
          Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
          But that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
          Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
          But that’s all right because I love the way you lie
          I love the way you lie
          Oh, I love the way you lie
          
          Now there’s gravel in our voices
          Glass is shattered from the fight
          In this tug of war you’ll always win
          Even when I’m right
          
          ‘Cause you feed me fables from your hand
          With violent words and empty threats
          And it’s sick that all these battles
          Are what keeps me satisfied
          
          So maybe I’m a masochist
          I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave
          'Til the walls are goin up
          In smoke with all our memories
          
          I love the way you lie [3x]

 #fml i tried to restore my old wattpad account @mistress_me but i couldn't, and now i'm sad bc i got so excited over it and it didn't work

someone recommend sad songs, i need to cry.

I'm blinded by my love for you, and i knew that one day it would get me in trouble, and now it has. Now, i'm blinded by love and tears. I guess I had it coming. You can never really love freely, now, can you?