PaxPan

Im sorry

Atleast i can yap to you somehow, even if you wont ever read it anyways
          I tried once or twice to bring up the issue again to fix it and idk if you cared abt those attempts so it feels weird trying again
          Im like scared to talk to you in person bro
          I wanna fix the friendship but it wont ever be a friendship again ig

Work has been going well, im working on a promotion right now which is fun and all
          I've been fully trained on everything in the front
          
          Aarons moving and is currently living 20 minutes away
          His family wants to move out of country
          I want to sob
          Literally every person i've ever liked romantically has moved bro
          Im cursed
          
          Im saving up for a motorcycle
          Have a board written and all
          I've been wanting to socialize more but i lowkey just cant bring myself to do it
          I dont wanna befriend someone you've befriended and then accidentally make you feel like im trying to befriend your friends
          Idk i've felt that way before cuz of kenna
          Its a weird feeling
          It sucks
          So im just trying to avoid everything until summer hits
          

I wish i had just asked you for clarification
          Then maybe i wouldnt have lost one of my closest friends to my lack of braincells fr fr
          My house is still available if you need a place to write down when you go to the navy
          Are you going to that naval academy this summer
          Idk
          I cant know lol
          Idk
          Its too late and night and im like constantly hating myself everytime i see you bro
          That sounds weird
          Not in a weird way

Theres an ICP concert coming soon
          I wish i could brag about it to you but like
          I cant
          So uh
          Thats fun
          Miss you bud

Dawg
          I miss being friends with you
          I wish i hadnt ruined it bro
          I think im still blocked but whatever 
          Gotta send smth somehow
          I miss like telling u everything and yapping to eachother over allnighter calls
          I went thru and removed u from all my docs that day cuz i thought you didnt wanna be friends with me anymore and that shit hurt like hell and i sobbed
          Idek how to apologize and i feel like it'd be weird
          I was thinking lil crafts for you and your family but i know they'd probably like forget abt it or smth idk
          Your solo ate

I'm sorry