Pax

Not me crying myself to sleep last night because I failed (again) to get my Dad to take my dog that killed my bunny a few months ago and it brought back my pain at what my life could be like if Honey was alive (my bunny that died bc of my dog. My other bunny (clover) died because she was likely sick before I adopted her)

My heart hurts so much 
          I wanna cry 
          Yesterday would have been one year of me and my GF being together 
          I loved her so much 
          I miss her 
          It feels so stupid…
          I miss her 
          I miss her so damn much

Fun fact 
          The skin on ur elbow is called a weenus :)

Honestly today is the first day in a long time that I’ve felt good about how I look :) 
          I still wish I weighed less y’know but I like my makeup I like my fishnets 
          Honestly I feel pretty good rn with how I look

Why does my motivation always go poof the second I wanna record for YouTube 
          
          :(

I was talking with my teacher about me doing tarot readings on people and this happened
          “It’s interesting where your mom draws the line for stuff” -him
          “Yeah she’s cool with me being a witch but not gay” -me
          “Witch, cool, gay witch, no” -him
          
          This is very true. 
          :P

I miss her

Lost a week :/

I started my grimoire 
          I started practicing witchcraft last Christmas 
          You’re supposed to start a grimoire/Book of Shadows as one of the first things
          It took me this long to 
          
          That was fun
          I also joined the Japanese club at my school
          
          I was supposed to join it with my Gf when is started but
          Yeah
          
          I started my Grimoire 
          I’m proud of myself

Everything hurts 
          I can’t breath 
          I want to cry 
          I’m in class
          Math class
          I hate math 
          Fuck my life