𝓟𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓮𝓹𝓱𝓸𝓷𝓮

I'm now back (hopefully for good!) 
          
          I had vanished for a bit as I just needed a break from social media altogether, I however didn't mean to be away for so long.
          
          I'm sorry to those who I kept waiting for such a long time.

I'm so so sorry everyone!
          
          I'm sorry I haven't been active! This year hasn't been going well for me, so I needed a mental break. (not to mention a few things happened.)
          
          I'll try my best to be more active, however!

https://www.wattpad.com/story/230733770

To everyone I'm roleplaying with, I'll be putting my roleplay book up onto my more active account, @https-kokoro and on my joint account @XxAverageGayGeeksxX so  when the roleplay books are up on those accounts, I'll do an announcement here to let you all know, and I'll leave a link to those books!
          
          I'm currently more active on my @https-kokoro account and on my joint account @XxAverageGayGeeksxX so yeah!

You're all probably fed up with me, but I apologise for not being active.
          
          I've been working on a story on a different account, and I've been grieving the loss of my grandmother.
          
          I will try to be more active though.

Sorry for being inactive, everyone!~
          
          BUT, I've updated my roleplay book, and I'm going to be active on here more!~

Do you ever get that feeling, that you just aren't good enough? Like, you'll never accomplish anything and your just a disgrace? No one will ever like you, and the only reason you have friends is that they pity you. You'll never ever be good enough, and everyone would be much happier if you just disappeared? Like, what if the cause of everyone I know, being unhappy, is because I exist?
          
           Would everything be better if I just vanished completely?
          
          It's not like people would actually miss me right? Sure, they say they'll miss me, but how can I believe their words? There's no guarantee or certainty that what they say is true.
          
          I just want everything to stop, even for a few minutes. I want feelings of regret, and paranoia to stop. I just want to not feel like a nuisance and a bother to everyone. Everything just gets so tiring. Life gets tiring. Pretending to be happy, even when your not is tiring. Just everything gets so tiring. 
          
          I mean, everything will just get better if I was gone. My brother and I would stop fighting. My parents wouldn't have to worry too much about income. I wouldn't annoy or bother my teacher. My family members wouldn't have to worry about any events concerning me. My friends will just move on without me. My girlfriend would move on without me.
          
          Everyone, would just eventually move on and forget, I mean, it is human nature right? To eventually move on from something? 
          
          I just wish, everything would stop for once. I want my brain to stop. I want to stop hearting. I just...I wish everything was a lot easier to handle and deal with.
          
          I have great friends, but what if they just pity me? What if they talk about me behind my back? What if they can't actually stand me? What if they all want me to vanish?
          
          Same with my girlfriend, she's amazing and just wonderful, and yet...she's with me?... Just- why? I honestly don't deserve her I just, feel like she's with me out of pity? Or as a joke? 
          
          
          Sorry for annoying you all I must be a burden, right?

@Wolflord3498 It will be! There isn't a release date for it yet, but it's in the works!

@Wolflord3498 Yeah! Rachel is going to be working with some company, (I can't remember) and they're going to be making Lore Olympus an animated series!

@Wolflord3498 Y E S!
          Are you excited for the animation series thats going to be made?!