ʚ-`𝓚𝓾𝓼𝓾𝓶𝓪´-ɞ

Y'all, stop reading my books. Please!
          My writing has gotten a bit better, stop reading them!!
          
          I just post on another account, I don't like posting on this one

I'm not dead (yet) but I don't think I'll be writing on this account. I'll probably just be open to having conversations every once in a while and letting y'all know I'm not dead. I do write on my other account tho. For some reason I don't feel much pressure on it or something. 

I'm sorry for not writing.
          I'm not good mentally. I've had so many times that I want to delete myself that it's so overwhelming and I barely have the motivation to write. I really do want to but I can't type anything. 
          If anyone would like to make their own version of the story, they can be my guest. I just don't think I'll be writing for a while. I really hope you can forgive me. I just need to figure out how to fix myself without yeeting myself from existence.

I almost forgot that I'm supposed to exist here- 
          Heyyy 

I will be remaking this story with better scripting for Y/N and stuff. The story won't be changed too much but some interactions will be altered as well as the story line. 
          
          So far I have about Y/N + key and chapter 1 posted. I will be doing my best to upload more.

It's  @Anxiety_filled_v0id and the pfp has a "don't jump" sign or whatever

I feel like making another account so I can just freely make new stories and stuff and not feel to stressed about it. I'm not gonna leave this one permanently, it's just a second account to post stories that I don't put deadlines or expectations on myself to make.
          
          I'll put its at whenever I come to it

I've found a solution to my dread! I'LL Write BOOKS OF CHARACTERS THAT I BARELY FIND GOOD FANFICS FOR!!! of course they'll be characters I really like ;)
          And did I get this idea right after a whole mental breakdown? YES!
          BUT I'M STILL DOING IT!
          
          FIRST IS TOKOYAMI BECAUSE I CAN BARELY FIND ANY GOOD ONES.

I don't mind if anyone sees this message but it's pretty much gonna be why I can't exactly write for a while. 
          
          !! Here a trigger warning: harmful thoughts and urges
          
          
          
          So I've not been doing well mentally lately. I feel like that's something I'm constantly saying, but it's true. I have really bad urges of either harming myself or struggling to find a reason to keep going. It's very exhausting and stressful because I know it isn't good but I can't exactly fix it. It drains me and weighs me down a lot to the point I have low self esteem and can't work very well. I really wish I could write more often for you all but it's just so painful to deal with this and feeling like the chapter isn't good enough. 
          
          I will still read stuff and try to put cheery comments so if you ever come across me in a fanfic, feel free to say anything. I'm just gonna need to find a way to build back up to a healthier mental state than now so that I can post for y'all because I really want to make stories!
          
          I hope you can bare with me while I try to find out a safe healing process and strengthen my hold onto a creative flow for my stories. 

Lol I made a lemon where y/n is a top. 
          I'm  bored