Hello Wattpad world. I don't know if anyone still follows my page here, but it's been years since I've written. I'm not the same person I was when I started writing here. A lot of really difficult, horrible things have happened to me since then. It hasn't been all bad, but it's been overwhelmingly so. Now, I navigate the world with the help of a counselor, my loving dog, and I keep going only because my body does. I really want to write again, I want t find myself, my passion, again, but - well, it's complicated. I guess I write this message in the hopes that someone sees this and even if I don't know it, they maybe feel an ounce of compassion for me. I don't get much understanding or compassion or even notice in the world I inhabit. Everyone has turned cold, cliquish, and cruel in the last decade or so, and people like me, with a heart, suffer the most because of it. So if you read this, just send some good vibes, some positive energy, some hope my way, if you would be so kind. I'd be most obliged. I really hope your life hasn't been as hard as mine as been in the last decade. No one who has worked as hard as I have and sacrificed as much of her life for others as I have done deserves this existence. Peace and love. PJ