Pheonix_1995
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T.W: don't read if you're in a bad space, mentally.
I've been trying and failing to write this message for over a year now and finally managed to do it.
So, here it goes...
Truth is, I am trapped. Physically. Emotionally. Financially. And in every sense of it.
After finishing my med school a few years ago, I was still struggling to get out of my post-COVID depression but I was hopeful. I had gotten a great offer from a surgery program where the chief surgeon himself handpicked me to be a part of his new team starting next fall.
But then both my parents got sick with covid and my dad barely managed to survive (he's still suffering from late-term effects of it) and when they begged me to come home, I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I booked a flight, packed all my life and returned home to my ultra-religious and extremely conservative family who are so homophobic that even in their darkest nightmares they can never imagine that I am queer (I don't think most of them even know what being queer is)
When you're living on your own, away from your family and everything, you tend to forget just what you were trying to escape. I, unfortunately, remembered that far too late and by the time I managed to breathe easy, I had lost far too much. Now, years later, I have no job, no money, no way to get away from this hellhole where I'm trapped. I never really trusted anyone enough to make friends who knew my truth and could help me here.
My depression is so bad that it has started to eat at my memory and most days I can't even remember what it was like to live in my skin and not care for anyone.
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FairyT984
Hi Phoenix, hope your okay and doing well. I hope you find your strength again to battle your pain just like what you have been giving to us through your stories. I just found out today because I was remembering the stories that I've read and made me cry. It was one of your stories which was Fate. It's the only story that I've read so far that has a very long storyline in every chapter and that is something I don't really like. But with yours, it was very very good that I would reread them when I find a chance again. If ever in the future, you would be able to publish them, I would love to buy and support because by that time, I would also have the ability to do so. So keep fighting, there are a lot who supports you whatever you may decide.
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abcdefghijklm56789
@Pheonix_1995 I’m so sorry with what you are going through I do hope that things will definitely improve for you
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abcdefghijklm56789
Hello Phoenix how are you doing? I am A from Nigeria and I want to say thank you for all the books you have written it got me out of a dark place in my life. However, I know that people tried to plagiarize your works and I understand the decision you made but this is just a sincere request I miss reading all your books and I genuinely wonder if they ever will be published again. In all I do hope you take care of yourself @ Phoenix_1995
Pheonix_1995
T.W: don't read if you're in a bad space, mentally.
I've been trying and failing to write this message for over a year now and finally managed to do it.
So, here it goes...
Truth is, I am trapped. Physically. Emotionally. Financially. And in every sense of it.
After finishing my med school a few years ago, I was still struggling to get out of my post-COVID depression but I was hopeful. I had gotten a great offer from a surgery program where the chief surgeon himself handpicked me to be a part of his new team starting next fall.
But then both my parents got sick with covid and my dad barely managed to survive (he's still suffering from late-term effects of it) and when they begged me to come home, I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I booked a flight, packed all my life and returned home to my ultra-religious and extremely conservative family who are so homophobic that even in their darkest nightmares they can never imagine that I am queer (I don't think most of them even know what being queer is)
When you're living on your own, away from your family and everything, you tend to forget just what you were trying to escape. I, unfortunately, remembered that far too late and by the time I managed to breathe easy, I had lost far too much. Now, years later, I have no job, no money, no way to get away from this hellhole where I'm trapped. I never really trusted anyone enough to make friends who knew my truth and could help me here.
My depression is so bad that it has started to eat at my memory and most days I can't even remember what it was like to live in my skin and not care for anyone.
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FairyT984
Hi Phoenix, hope your okay and doing well. I hope you find your strength again to battle your pain just like what you have been giving to us through your stories. I just found out today because I was remembering the stories that I've read and made me cry. It was one of your stories which was Fate. It's the only story that I've read so far that has a very long storyline in every chapter and that is something I don't really like. But with yours, it was very very good that I would reread them when I find a chance again. If ever in the future, you would be able to publish them, I would love to buy and support because by that time, I would also have the ability to do so. So keep fighting, there are a lot who supports you whatever you may decide.
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abcdefghijklm56789
@Pheonix_1995 I’m so sorry with what you are going through I do hope that things will definitely improve for you
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lovemeret
hi author, i hope you’re doing well!! do you think you could put aurora roman back up ? i’ve missed that story so muchhh
willowmancerr
Hey author
You probably have deleted wattpad but I guess i could send the message here
If you ever download wattpad again, I hope you would be okay with publishing your books again. I read fate for the first time before i start college and now I am finishing it. It would be the best if i could have the opportunity to read it again
I hope everything is going well for you, take care of yourself.
azybazzi24
Hey author hope all is well and that you are taking care of yourself. I just wanted to ask if you will ever post all your stories again? Your stories have helped me really through some tough times and they make me feel like I belong in the world. It brings light to my days when I feel like just giving up. I miss them truly and I miss you as well. Whenever u come back, we will be waiting with open arms. Thank you for listening, I know you probably are very busy yourself. I just wanted to say thank you for blessing my eyes and soul with your work, really!
Yourneighborhoodaunt
hello? when will you update "voiceless lover?"
sapph_o0
I just followed and your count went up to 1.72K
well done author
pikachu0724
Hello author… hope you’re doing fine.
aaisha28
Hello author, it's been so long. Hope you are okay. Just wondering will you ever publish these books again or is there any other app where I can find these. I just miss reading Fate and all the other books.