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Heli anyone wanna rp Phan? :3

I look at myself, and I see something weak. I scold myself daily for being weak. I keep pouring stress onto myself. I'm in multiple clubs. I want to be in MORE clubs. I beat myself up for not doing something or failing something. I stay up late trying to find time for myself which leads to not enough sleep. I just entered high school, which already so many other freshmen are breaking down from the pressure. I have friend drama, family drama. And not to mention that I'm still figuring myself out. And yet I hold myself together. I see now that I'm not weak. I am strong (and cocky as fuck leave me alone xD). Or maybe I'm just delusional and am slowly breaking inside.

After watching some of Marks older videos, I realized how much he's changed. It seemed like he was TRYING to be funny. He looked like he wanted to impress his friends (this was before Tyler, Ethan, Amy, & Katherine were introduced). But now, he's comfortable with himself. He doesn't try as hard to be funny, so that naturally makes him more funny. He isn't trying to impress his friends anymore. He's grown as a person and I am proud of him. 

I grab my pen and paper,
          Sitting down and ready to write
          
          My hand flows
          The ink spills and letters
          Start to form
          
          Letters to words
          Words to sentences 
          Sentences to poems
          
          Poems of the sad
          Poems of the lonely
          Poems of the forgotten
          
          So I stand and grab my pen and paper, putting it in my drawer
          
          Not to be thought of again
          
          

So a couple weeks ago I made a friend and told her my preferred name & pronouns. My other (nonaccepting) friend told her my birth name and pronouns. She then started calling me by my birthname and pronouns. I told her and she said "You're confusing me woman!". I stopped talking to her. Now she over exaggerates my pronouns. "You do not suck at singing SIR. SIR you are good! SIR." Please don't do this to ypur trans friends. Address them calmly. Don't overexagerate their pronouns. It only hurts them.

I want. To kill. The world.

I want a hug ;-;

Sup mah dudes. Just posted a new chapter to my Phan Oneshots book! I'd love it if you checked it out ^^ (of course if you don't know Dan and Phil then I understand)

I'm not ok

I think... I think I had a dream the other night that Dan said something about there only being "ONE BED" and like nobody else noticed but then I started freaking out about it so others did too. It was... A nice dream