You never truly know how much someone's existence can affect you til they dont exist anymore...I miss you...I miss my bestfriend...I'll go visit your grave again soon I promise, I love you Ian. I wish you would have stayed strong but ik how it is to let the demons get the best of you. You helped me fight mine, I'm sorry I couldn't help you fight yours. You promised you'd never hurt yourself again but you did, now I have to hold my end of that promise. I wish you would have left a note, I wanna know why you did it. I've known you for such a long time, you never left things unsaid. I've never been someone to be big on religion but if it does exist...I hope I can see my bestfriend again and maybe find out why you chose to end your life....I really miss you...I wish this was all just a bad dream...