Gremlin

Let's play a game! Put a finger down: I need to vent but don't want to be a burden so I come to wattpad edition!
          
          Put a finger down if you spend each evening between the times of 9 to 12 coaxing at least 1 friend from a panic attack or A suicidal mindset so that you can see them the next day and one of these friends has DID so you have to keep track of their alters as well as their mental health and then they tell you that they have their suicide all planned out for a specific date which is within the next two days and you spend every one of these evenings crying as you try to convince them not to die because they are your friend and you love them and they can't leave you even though your family is moving house and that means you are being forced to change schools so that you will no longer be around so you're technically leaving them and you're terrified that one day you'll forget to message and you'll come back to visit them and find out their dead and you're tired of all of this and you just want to go back to being a little kid where the scariest thing was the monster under the bed or the game that your older sister was playing before you went to sleep and you just want to help this friend get better but they can't tell their parents because their parents are shit.
          
          If you have a finger down, you are me. Do you want a hug??

I missed Romans birthday by a long time-
          
          

THOMAS IM SO F**KING SORRY!
          I forgot it was his birthday all day ;-;
          
          Happy Birthday Thomas, thank you for everything you've done for me. Even if you will never see this, and even if this will never be able to express how great you are, I still wanted to write it.
          You helped me understand myself better or helped me to begin to get their.
          You taught me it was okay to have bad days but I can still appreciate all of me. You taught me its okay to be myself.
          And I appreciate it. You don't know me, yet I feel like I owe you so much.
          
          Thank you Thomas and I hope your birthday is the best :)

That moment when you find the most amazing shirt ever but you're not out to your family and don't want to because its not that big of a deal as they can't change it and its a natural thing to love someone.
          
          
          
          But you still want the shirt.

I hate it when my parents won't give me a straight answer.
          Like come on, you married a man/woman, you're meant to be able to do this (ಥ﹏ಥ)

So don't usually give two hecks about my appearance but I was on Amazon and I found these dungarees and I want them but I'm worried if I asked my parents if I could get them they'd judge me because I'm too 'emo' for that.
          Just because I generally wear black and I like mcr and bands like that, doesn't mean I'm automatically emo.
          I High-key wanna get them and edge my style closer to that (think cottagecore sorta vibes).
          Help, overthinking over clothes of all things TwT 

Someone help, my vocaloid phase from when I was like 8 is returning

I saw a really angsty thing on tiktok so me being the angst lover I am, I made a story for it and enjoyed it.
          
          So ima make a new book with trashy little angsty oneshots for general things so no fandoms.
          
          It would mean a lot if you had a look at it :)

I have come to understand that I can't play games where characters die.
          Because I will adopt one.
          I will get emotionally attached.
          And I will rage quit when they die, especially if it could have been avoided.
          And yet my dumb self won't stop playing them!
          
          Anyways, how's your day going?
          

On another note, one comment said why are you gay and I replied with 
          
          BECAUSE I WAS BORN A FRICKING RAINBOW. 
          
          Which is now gonna be my response to everything homophobes throw my way