PillForTheMisfits

Oh for heck's sakes, DELETE THE MESSAGE, WATTPAD, I'M TRYING TO MOVE ON.

PillForTheMisfits

i don't wanna be here anymore. my life support is gone and my true form as a corpse is inevitable. That's just the way it goes. I could've told you it would end this way, but I was lying to myself so I could feel the light for just a little while. But hey, nothing gold can stay, so

PillForTheMisfits

Kinda feels like I'm decomposing from inside out and nothing I can do will stop it. I can't say I didn't see this coming, it's always felt too good to be true. Sure, I didn't mean it, sure they've forgotten or moved on, sure I'm totally different now, but it doesn't matter, does it? It's not gonna be okay. Things aren't gonna work out in time. Not on my end. So all my progress will become undone and so will I. I already miss them beyond words and I've cried up all of my tears so none will spill anymore. I doubt I'll go on like this for long, and I don't want to either. I'll probably just shift into autopilot and forget everything about who I thought I was. I'll probably try to pretend it doesn't hurt. I'll pretend I don't feel this alone. I'll just pretend a little longer. I can't do anything in this situation except for hope, but it can never be the same because the fact of the matter is that I am disgusting and I do not deserve love, your compassion, or a second chance, not after what I did. I'd do anything to reverse all of this. Anything. I can't promise anything. I'm already reckless and careless, but that's my own doing, not yours. I won't lie and tell you that I'll be fine, because I don't even know that for myself. I don't even know that for myself. Tyson says hi. He went to dad's. I miss him already.