Pink Waffles

Sorry, I know you won't mind, but still :')
          
          I've been thinking a lot and shit.
          Like currently, I guess I kinda feel sad? I'm not sure... Also uh idrc if you don't reply to any of this, just maybe read it? If you want? This is kinda a "mini" vent? Sorry.. Uh... So yeah. I guess I feel sad, even though I rarely feel it. I'm mostly just mad or annoyed or happy or tired but like, sadness just isn't a main feeling for me? I sometimes feel like I'm selfish whenever I start worrying about being judged and shit, and lately I have to take deep breaths to calm down. I also kinda feel like I'm lying to myself? Don't know why... Or maybe I do and just don't feel comfortable to "say"/type it out loud(?). I wish I had enough confidence to say how I truly feel, but it's hard when I'm too scared of being judged. I also wish to FEEL more accepted and not feel like an outcast. I want to be able to feel like I do fit in and not just there because they're my friends. It's hard to find people who actually would could maybe hopefully probably understand me, maybe that's why I kinda do keep stuff to myself? Does this even make sense? Whatever, my thoughts wouldn't make sense to others, so it doesn't matter. Like me. Do I really matter? I'm just someone you (as in general, everyone you a human being person) know. Know the person on the outside. But do you truly know me? Do you know the way I think? How I feel? ALL the stuff I feel over certain things? Do you even want to know me? Why do I feel like I try to little, yet too much? Why can't I just be told that I'm enough and accept that? Why? Why? Why? It's always questions for me. And maybe you? So yeah, these are some of my current thoughts, other than glittery cats, and banana peels, and octopi.

aaa you don’t need to—
          
          (but at the same time thank you)

I want to frickin di-i-i-e