hey.
i have no idea if you still use wattpad, if you'll ever see this, or if you'd even want to talk to me again, but it's Lilac (or Lunar, or Bekah, whichever you might remember me as),
it's been over four years since we talked, since i had a moment of sheer panic and anxiety and unfriended you on everything because i let my ridiculous fears take over my mind. i think about you a lot, and i just wanted to say i'm sorry. You were an amazing friend, but i let some stupid video or something about the dangers of talking to people online destroy years of friendship., and then i was too scared you'd hate me to reach out again and apologize.
i was watching a youtube video that made me think of you earlier, and i just had to finally say this. i hope you're doing well. i hope you're happy and healthy and flourishing, i hope you had better friends than me who stuck by you like i wish i had. I still think of you every time I hear prom dress (not even sure if you'd remember showing me that song).
This apology has been weighing on my heart for years, and my hands are shaking knowing I'm about to post this even if you might never see it. You really were my best friend, Foxy. I'm sorry I messed it up.
