@charjoy2005 no u don't mess up Hun you'll pull this through, you'll be fine I was one Depressed myself I started cutting my self 1 year ago, and I was clean for a full year new record I thought nobody cared for me, or loved me, so I started cutting myself, it still hurts just thinking about it,
But self harm isn't the anser, I should know, I tried suicide a lot but fails miserably, so pls you'll be okay Hun every here cares for u, and you are not a disappointment, you are a great friend, and should be happy, I did that by just moving out I live with my grandma I'm 18 and I'm happy now I'm not at home,