PoisonEmbers

Fam I’m tweaking out astronomically oh my God I want so desperately to write again BUT I CAN NEVER FVCKING CONCENTRATE LONG ENOUGH TO FINISH WHAT I START. I read everyone else’s fanfictions and I ache at the thought that I have the ABILITY to follow in their footsteps but not the will. Whenever I read actual books, my entire chest hardens into obsidian; the hope of possible futures where I become a published author glint off the mineral faces in darts of light, materialising yet unpenetrating, tantalisingly out of reach. I want to write. I want to show the world that I can write. I want to be a safe space and a mystical haven and an exciting new adventure in a magical realm, for myself and for others, but I’ve been entirely trapped within my own procrastination ever since I started high school. Maybe that’s just what happens when you grow up: you sharpen your writing ability but your desire and motivation dwindle over the years until the stores are depleted and running on fumes. Maybe the trick is to keep writing in spite of it.
          	
          	It’s a strange kind of feeling. Almost like hiraeth. Every bone in my body pulls to the surface in incredible aching, my lungs stained with longing. It’s like I’m baptised in mourning, submerged in grief over what is only dead because it is not yet alive.

PoisonEmbers

This hasn’t changed unfortunately I’m still trying to write but it’s going very, very slowly
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PoisonEmbers

@69wowyouregay62 unfortunately xd
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PoisonEmbers

@JTPruett14 ❤️
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Galaxyflus

hii are you in the pfm group chat on Instagram?

Galaxyflus

@PoisonEmbers ill add u rq its pending rn
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PoisonEmbers

@Galaxyflus oh tea thank you! I’m emiliereads12 :)
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Galaxyflus

@PoisonEmbers and lol I don't mind at all I've deactivated it for now but it's margarxxi or smth like that, give me yours and I'll follow u once I activate it
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ThisWickedWitch

Hey ty for reading my story and commenting so much! You're amazing!!

ThisWickedWitch

@gayforregina Hiiii I've been gone for days lol
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gayforregina

@ThisWickedWitch omg hi twin
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PoisonEmbers

@ThisWickedWitch AH OF COURSE!!! I’m so glad you like my yap instead of finding it annoying lmao <333
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pananahthefirst

Girl im back again

PoisonEmbers

@pananahthefirst AHHH HEY SO SORRY I8M LATE
            That’s incredible wtf!!!! That sounds awesome!!!! I hope you’ve been doing well, having fun, and finding it amazing!!!! <3
            This year has been a rollercoaster for me LMAO I started university (Double degree Bachelor of Psychology and Bachelor of Arts majoring in English) and that was somehow equal parts wonderful and absolutely nuts,, I must have hit rock bottom at least once a month this year HAHA. Miserable and magical, to quote Taylor Swift. Hopefully I’m going part-time next year so that will be better for me.
            Thank you so much for asking and for reconnecting! I’m so sorry I never responded, I’ve been a MESS with messages this year (not just on Wattpad but everywhere). Merry early Christmas as well Pananah <3333
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pananahthefirst

Ive been good! I started helicopter pilot school a few months back! Howve you been????
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PoisonEmbers

@pananahthefirst HEYYYY!!! I’ve missed you!!!! How have you been? What have you been up to?! ❤️❤️❤️
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Kanairyxwrites

Giggling reading your new comments!

PoisonEmbers

@Kanairyxwrites oh I made more spelling errors than I thought, my bad
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PoisonEmbers

@Kanairyxwrites HELLO THAT’S SUCH A COMPLIMENT I’M SO FLAD YOURE NEJOYING THEM ❤️❤️❤️!!!!
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