PoisonEmbers

Fam I’m tweaking out astronomically oh my God I want so desperately to write again BUT I CAN NEVER FVCKING CONCENTRATE LONG ENOUGH TO FINISH WHAT I START. I read everyone else’s fanfictions and I ache at the thought that I have the ABILITY to follow in their footsteps but not the will. Whenever I read actual books, my entire chest hardens into obsidian; the hope of possible futures where I become a published author glint off the mineral faces in darts of light, materialising yet unpenetrating, tantalisingly out of reach. I want to write. I want to show the world that I can write. I want to be a safe space and a mystical haven and an exciting new adventure in a magical realm, for myself and for others, but I’ve been entirely trapped within my own procrastination ever since I started high school. Maybe that’s just what happens when you grow up: you sharpen your writing ability but your desire and motivation dwindle over the years until the stores are depleted and running on fumes. Maybe the trick is to keep writing in spite of it.
          	
          	It’s a strange kind of feeling. Almost like hiraeth. Every bone in my body pulls to the surface in incredible aching, my lungs stained with longing. It’s like I’m baptised in mourning, submerged in grief over what is only dead because it is not yet alive.

anothergaylesbain

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PoisonEmbers

@anothergaylesbain OMG HI SORRY I WAS AT WORK THE WHOLE DAY I’M HERE HOW XX
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PoisonEmbers

Fam I’m tweaking out astronomically oh my God I want so desperately to write again BUT I CAN NEVER FVCKING CONCENTRATE LONG ENOUGH TO FINISH WHAT I START. I read everyone else’s fanfictions and I ache at the thought that I have the ABILITY to follow in their footsteps but not the will. Whenever I read actual books, my entire chest hardens into obsidian; the hope of possible futures where I become a published author glint off the mineral faces in darts of light, materialising yet unpenetrating, tantalisingly out of reach. I want to write. I want to show the world that I can write. I want to be a safe space and a mystical haven and an exciting new adventure in a magical realm, for myself and for others, but I’ve been entirely trapped within my own procrastination ever since I started high school. Maybe that’s just what happens when you grow up: you sharpen your writing ability but your desire and motivation dwindle over the years until the stores are depleted and running on fumes. Maybe the trick is to keep writing in spite of it.
          
          It’s a strange kind of feeling. Almost like hiraeth. Every bone in my body pulls to the surface in incredible aching, my lungs stained with longing. It’s like I’m baptised in mourning, submerged in grief over what is only dead because it is not yet alive.

PoisonEmbers

Karma by Jojo Siwa is Hawkfrost’s and Ashfur’s theme song. Send tweet
          
          (I know nothing about Hawkfrost and I have no business assigning theme songs to any character in Warriors. I will hear no arguments)

PoisonEmbers

@wishfuIthinking omg slay !! I think everyone went through the phase lol
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PoisonEmbers

@cherriswft I’m glad (crying emoji)
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PoisonEmbers

Chat, I’ve been debating for years about watching Arcane, but I’ve always been apprehensive because I’m so sick of lesbians never being happy & I know the angst will destroy me.
          
          But with Season Two out now (I think?), more people than ever are raving about it. And there are a lot of things I love about League Of Legends, the art style, the setting and the vibes, the fantasy aspect, and the characters…
          
          Should I make the leap?

PoisonEmbers

@ebdhshdbisja I do adore Steampunk and lesbianism XD Ty so much for the rec! I’ll see when I can get around to it <3 (and the way you described its animation is so on-point, I really love what I’ve seen of it so far!)
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ebdhshdbisja

@ ebdhshdbisja  plus if you do watch it, tell me if you liked it
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ebdhshdbisja

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You should ABSOLUTELY make that leap. From someone who's been hyperfixating on Arcane for the last months. YES. 
            Its a WONDERFUL serie, the best I've ever watched so far tbh.
            
            The animation is beautiful, literally looks like a painting thats come to life, the lore is fucking great, too(even though the last season might feel a bit rushed).
            And it does a great job at depicting mental illnesses aswell. Theres lots of variety with the characters, and I love how the show is mainly driven by female characters, we got a LOT of girl bosses here. 
            And oh the representation, I love that part. If youre scared the angst will kill you, yes, yes it will, but if youre tired of lesbians not getting a happy ending, then watch Arcane!!!
            If you like angst, lesbians, lots of father/daughter dynamics, doomed sisters, steampunk, fantasy and gorgeous animation, you're gonna like Arcane!!
            
            
            
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PoisonEmbers

I think my version of “sighs, unzips” or “sighs, reaches for bottle of lotion” except in a non-sexual way is when I encounter a book that seems so extremely cliche and trope-y to the point where I would be steering FAR away from it if it was straight, BUT – it’s sapphic, and has the slightest potential to be better than I’m assuming it to be. So I sigh and add it to my Wattpad Library  (crying emoji)

_ClarissaWrites_

No, but why is this so true? Like, I have so many dumb sapphic books saved in my library (laughing emoji)
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