Hello Polska.
As of this time, the end of August 2025, it has officially been five years. There is very rarely a time recently where I don’t sit and think about the years 2020 and 2021; such a strange time to be alive, the farther away they get the more they feel like this strange alternate world that I can almost transfer myself back to if I think hard enough.
But of course, whenever I think about that time, it’s always inevitable for you to show up. It’s become a routine over the past five years, that every couple of months or so I will suddenly be mentally flash-banged by the name ‘PolishPierogi’ and have to come back here to reread the same messages on this board again.
I wish I could do a long heartfelt speech, but I have nothing I could say other than a recycle of everything else here: what happened was an absolute tragedy. There is, of course, also the fact that aside from my silly ‘communist hamster cult’ we definitely weren’t one another’s closest friends. It pains me that Wattpad’s removal of private messages some years ago erased the interactions we did have before (and even after) your passing.
But there is one thing I have left and that is the memories, the memories that always send me straight back here to pay my respects to an unfairly lost life…no matter how long it’s been.
Goodbye for now Polska, until I am brought back here again.